Hey. Not really all that cheery today. I was fine earlier. Then it all went to hell.

Joel asked me to the movies on Saturday. And needless to say....I can't go. And its all my fault. Joel called my house and talked to my mom about why I wasn't allowed to go. And that ticked me off a little. I had told him not to....to just let it be. But he called anyway....and earne brownie points from mom and Brad because of it. Which also ticked me off. I NEVER get brownie points. I could set myself on fire for my family and not even get a thank you. But anyways....it's my fault that we can't go do anything this weekend...it's a rly long story...if you HONESTLY want to know....call me. It's my fault. And because I keep telling Joel that its my fault...he's mad @ me. I'm just facing reality. That's all. I can't seem to do anything right anymore. Weither it's between me and him or just within the family....I just keep digging myself a hole that I can't seem to get out of.

I've had swim team @ 11am since Monday. It's only a 45 min practice but it still wears me out. It's a nice way to start the morning....diving into a pool with a water temp of like 30. It's not really that cold...but it feels like it.

I also have summer league for volleyball on Sundays now. It nice to actually get to play.

I'm trying for my liscence next Saturday....which is also the day that my Mom and Brad said that me and Joel could go do something....my fault again....

TTFN