I feel like shit man! My throat hurts and Im so fuckin tired!Couldn't go to the movies yesterday because I didn' sweep the house like I was supposed to!! I didn't know I was supposd to!! I was pissed!! I wanted to go and "sit" w/ Chadd!! J/P!! Anywho.....Claire and Sara went to a Bowling for Soup concert last night! Had to be fun!!Maggie had me tell Cody that she was suffering from withdrawl because she hadn't made out w/ anybody in 2 weeks!! He laughed and said that he would take care off it at the movies!! Chadd went!! I'll have to get all the info from him on Monday!!I punched Ethan in the gut thhursday night!! It was soo funny! He theen thought that he had to get me back the next day by stabbing me in the sides!! It hurt!!Joel and I were bitchin about who's ass was the best!! Joel said to ask the master (Chadd) Chadd of course said my ass was the best!! He He He!! well Ig2g!

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Hey all!!Sup? I know its like 9 but w/e!! Not tired! Cody asked me when Im gonna make out w/ Chadd!! I told him its not something you plan!! It'll just happen!! Im sure I'll suck at it!! O well!! Chadd you really need to get a blog babe!! Maggie made out w/ Cody at the movies friday!! She said he tasted like berries!!It was soo funny!!I couldn't stop laughing when she told me!! He HE!! Josh got ISS!! He left school before they even let us in the building!! SOOO gay!! Sunday me and Chadd went down to Kasie's!! Me and Kasie made fun of Chadd's SEXY pose!! I got a rug burn on my elbow when I mocked him!! It burned really bad!! Well I g2g!!

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ps Happy V-Day to all if I don't update by then!! 

We had a 2 hour delay today!! Its still foggy as shit right now!! Even if its like 5 o'clock!! Maggie no offense but please leave me alone about makin out w/ Chadd!! I don't want you and Cody watchin when we make out!! We will eventually...but just stop!! I've never made out and I don;t want to fuck up Chadd and I's relationship!!This may piss you off and Im sry but just stop pushing me!! Chadd I will make out w/ you...but Maggie is pushing to hard!! Okay......I feel better!! I want to have another dance soo bad!! God!! Well I gotta go!!

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We had another 2 hour delay this morning!! Yea us!! Had an incentive assembly today too!! Chadd had a detention today! Mrs. Calvin is soo mean!!Only had 2 real classes today because of the delay!!! Pretty mallow day for me! Jessie im sry J*** is the way he is!! Michael good job on 4 weeks!! Claire don't hug me...it scares me!! Im goin to Kasies for a b-day party/sleep over tomorrow!! Yea me!! Might go to Putt-Putt Saturday w/ Chadd, Maggie,Cody and Cait!! Donno yet though!! I rly don't have a lot to say sooo bye

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Hey all!! Went to Putt-Putt last night!! Chadd, Maggie, Cody, Claire, Michael, Sara, Sean, Josh, and one of Sean's friends were there!! It was fun!! Chadd kissed me!!!!!!!!! Fuck Yea!! It was awesome!! HE HE HE!!! Thoses who were there know the info!! But I won't share any more!! Spent the night at Maggie's afterward!! Accidentally fell asleep in my jeans, Crow shirt, zipper hoodie, jewlery, and makeup!! Oops!! I was tired because the night before I was at Kasie's and didn't get to bed till 3 in the morning!! It was fun!! I got to drawl on Maggie's windows!! Yea!! I bought Chadd a big ass cookie for V-Day!! And when I say big I mean BIG!!!!!  Big as my ass big!!! He He!! Im home alone at the moment!! Fun Fun!! I might get to go to the YMCA for a lock in!! Chadd is goin w/ Cody and Im goin w/ Maggie!! *wink* Well the dryer just went off!!I g2g!!

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ps Chadd love you, kiss was freakin awesome (as was the makeout session) Sry it only happened once!!

Hey all!! Happy V-Day!! Claire, Michael, Josh, Annie, And Sara just a regular happy day to you!! I got a chocolate rose, giant Hershy kiss, Chocolate lips, ateddy bear and a rose w/ a balloon from Chaddd!! He dropped the rose and balloon of at my house after school!! Actually it was closer to 5 when he dropped it off....but o well!! I was sleeping and Collyn had just called (but mom told her I was sick) Then I heard stomping noises on my porch and Im like mom someones on th porch !! It turned out to be Chadd!! In the process of crawling out of my bed I ran into the wall and Im sure I looked like Poo!! I was so happy!! I feel soooo spoiled right know!! I love Chadd so much!! I can't wait till the lock in friday!! He HE!!Well I g2g!!

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Dude Napster is pissin me off!! Supposed to have 14 days free!! Well w/e downloaded 13 songs and is gonna cost me 12.87!! Freakin bullshit man!! Damn!! O hey Maggie ur a fuckin dumbass!! I know I do stupid shit and have no right to nag on you....DAMN!! Life sucks!! Claire and Michael broke up!! She came up to me in tears after school!! Couldn't understand a Damn word she said!! Hey all if you happen to Know whats goin on Please let me know!! Anywhos!! I g2g!!

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Hey all!! Im supposed to be doin my english right now but....I don't wanna!! My step dad ended up buying me all those songs that I had downloaded!! So I've basically listened to the whole CD over and over!! Damn Good!!! My brother is sleeping on the floor right now!! Soooo precious!! Him & I got into a fight over the bear Chadd got me for V-Day!! See he's a year old and very sick right now and I thought that if I gave him the bear he'd leave me alone!!Well he left me alone......but wouldn't give me my bear back!! I then got yelled at because it's a really nice bear and my mom amd I didn't want him to wipe his boogers on it!! I had to substitute it w/ a lion that I have!! Awesome Huh!? Michael and Claire are back together!! Yea!! Joel is an ass!! He got Jessie's hopes up that he might ask her out....but gues what ...he's goin out w/ Mindy!! I like Mindy but Christ Joel have a heart!! Well I g2g!!

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Damn!! I HATE homework!! I want to kill the person who started to give out homework!! DIE!!!! *growls* I also hate the fact that we have to take an achievement test for Algebra!!! That DAMN test makes me feel fuckin stupid!! But there was a plus to my day!! 1) Chadd told Sarah that I was hot when I was standing right beside him!! 2) Varsity boys bball team came to our school!! Awesomely HOT boys!! Yum!! Got to see Collyn's brother too!!! Yea!! (Don't worry Chadd, ur still my sexy, Love you!!) I need to do my homework...*gag*  Mom's not home for another hour yet soo I'm good!! He HE!! But I need to go to make sure my wild bro isn't getting into anything!!

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ps Today's thursday!! Tomorrow's Friday!! YEA!!!! Inside thing!!(YMCA)

Okay ppl guess what day today is....FRIDAY!!!!!! Yea!! Fun for me...not you!!(unless your Cody, Maggie, or Chadd) He HE!!! Okay.... my mom called me at 6:20 and woke me up!! The at 6:30 Cody called and asked for Chadd's number!! Then when I finally started to doze off again MAggie called!!! Goddamn ppl!! I told you I'd be sleeping.....leave me alone!! Fu FUn !!! Ha Ha!! Well I g2g!!!

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Today is Saturday...yesterday was Friday!!! Hello all!! I just got home and I'm surviving on 3 hours of sleep!! The YMCA was fun....but kinda boring!! Chadd and I played ping-pong!! It wasn't really ping-pong though cause we didn't follow the rules!!! Maggie, Collyn and I went swimming and laughed our butts off!! Maggie fell asleep like 3 times and was woke up by Chadd all 3 times!!  She was sooooo mad!! Chadd also kept stealing my pillow!! It smells like him now!! He smells soooooo good!! Ha HE!! Maggie, Cody, Chadd, and I watched the v-ball tournies and when the gym was empty ....well....let's just say that Chadd tastes like berries/cough syrup!! Yummy!!! He He!! I don't thiink he liked this session though!! He was really quiet afterward...or he was tired!! I'm betting that he was tired! Cody dozed off in the van on the way back to the Church!! Ha HA...soooo funny!! I betting that Maggie and Cody are at the movies watching Boogie Man right now!! Chadd might be there too!! O well!! Well I g2g!!

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ps: Chadd, if I die tomorrow all you need to know is that I love you and you make every day worth living!! Thanx!!

Hey all!! Went to the movies yesterday w/ Chadd!! Fun Fun!! Boogey Man has got to be the freakiest movie on the face of the planet!! HA HA!! My parents aren't home so I have to type fast!!! Ha HA!! I have to get my Homework done yet!! OOps!! Well I g2g before someone gets home!!

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Ok ppl.... let me say this... Joel broke the necklace that Chadd gave me. He didn't do it on purpose. He then at the end of the day left an apology note in my locker. I forgave him...then I was informed that he might switch schools!! Well then I was really pissed. He said that him and his parents wee debating on him switching. He put in the note that now he deffinantly is goin to swithch because he's caused so much troubl for me and eveyone else!! Well what the same hell.....Joel I know you don't read my blog but ur like a bro to me and I don't want you to leave. Im goin to Claire's house tomorrow. Chadd'll be there.*grins* Well I g2g.

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ps Chadd love you bunches, and I love the FRENCH!! But of course I love you more!!

Ok a run down of today. Walked home in the rain w/ Chadd!!! Have no Homework!! Go ME!!! Ummmm......I hate english! We have to do a skit!! Damn!! Well I don't really have a bunch to say!! Oh wait......Chadd I love you!!!! Withdrawls suck!!

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Ok ppl!! Snow is fallin a winter wind is blowin and its freakin cold!! Walked home in the snow w/ Chadd. He thought it would be fun to kick snow all over me!! It was cold and it made my butt all wet.Chadd also about killed me w/ a ball during dodgeball. If I hadn't of ducked it would have hit me square in the face!! Next time my dear you'll be punished!! J/k. OMG Josh called my house last night and made the noise that the girl from the Grudge made!! Scared me to death!! I started to laugh histarically!! HA HA!!Claire was "mad" at michael today!! She was gonna help him w/ his paper route but she was also goin to miss Montley Crue  live on TV!! It was soooo funny!! I want to go to Putt-Putt Saturday but I don't know if I can!! GRRR!!! I have to watch a bunch off kids on Sunday while my mom has a CM party!! Chadd's mom might be there!! It's not at my house!! (thank heavens) Ok well I g2g. Must write Chadd a note!! I love his notes!! They're sooooo awesome!! *sighs*

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ps Chadd I love you and I will AAF!! 2 weeks of withdrawls......*wink* 

Hey all!! My bro is sittin  in my lap and Im beginning to lose the feeling in my leg!! Yea he's that fat!! But sooo cute! Ha HA!! Mrs.Calvin put on Claire's neon green converses today in algebra!! It was funny. She was doin the windshield wiper!! He He!! Oh I hate english!! We have to do some script and it sucks! I hate it!! NAEP test tomorrow. I wasn't selected....Chadd was! 1 1/2-2 hour test so he gets outta 1,2,3, and some of 4 periods. Chadd gets outta algebra while I have to sit there and be bored to death!! GGGRRRRR!! Oh well!! Putt-Putt saturday....still don't know if I can go!! Well I g2g sooo....

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ps Chadd i'll try my hardest to go to Putt-Putt!! Love YOU!!

Ok ppl im here at my grandmas in findaly. Fun Fun!! My lil sis Macy and step bro Cody should be here soon! So much for peace and quite. O well!! I went to the movies w/ Maggie, Cody, and Chadd!! Meet the Fockers is the dumbest yet funniest movie!! Chadd and I held hands!! Thats all I swear.The theater was packed!! It was a pain to find a seat w/ the 4 of us sittin together.It was fun though!! My dad might get me a cell phone. Yea!! Chadd's workin today and tomorrow!! 11-3 at dariysnack!! It feels so wierd tellin people that he has to work!! Butt o well!! I love him soo its all good!!well I g2g so ....

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ps Love you Chadd!! I'll never leave you!! Oh I have your Blink182 wrist thingy!!

Chadd has offically ended his first day at work! He's been off for like 40 minutes!!He's probably at Joel's right now!! Might be ridin!! Donno though!! Just thought i'd tell ya'll!!

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Ok peeps...Chadd and I walked home in the pourin rain!! Good thing I didn't wear a white shirt!! Ha Ha!! He's bowlin right now w/ The Cody's!!Boy's night out!!*winks* Just got off the phone w/ Maggie!! We might go shoppin after school Friday!! Yea!! Clothes and bras and underwear if you all care!! He He!! Then we came to the conclusion that before the next dance she's gonna come over and staighten my hair!! O JOY!!! I hate spending a lot of time on things that are just gonna get messed up any way!! O well!!! I can't wait till the next dance! *smiles,evil laugh* Yeah....u all should know that story!! Well.....lets see.....Chadd told his mom that we made out and she laughed!! WOW!! Ok....I don't have a bunch to say......

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ps Chadd, love you, thanx for all the "fun" times!!

I wake up to find myself
After all these years
And where all the time has gone
Still seems so unclear
'Cause there's no one else
Since I found you
I know it's been so hard
You should know

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say?
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow

It brings out the worst in me
When you're not around
I miss the sound of your voice
The silence seems so loud
'Cause there's no one else
Since I found you
I know it's been so hard
You should know

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say?
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow

I spent all my life
Looking for our innocence
I've got nothing to lose
One thing to prove
I won't make the same mistakes
Now I know
That everything will be ok
When I die tomorrow

If I die tomorrow
As the minutes fade away
I can't remember
Have I said all I can say?
You're my everything
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow
You make me feel so alive
If I die tomorrow
If I die tomorrow

God I LOVE this song!!Yea me!! Oh Chadd I love you soooo much and if I die tomorrow this is all you need to know: I'm yours forever!!

Hello friends!! I don't know some of you....hello anyway!!! I went to Putt-Putt last night and it was fun. Claire and me played a racing game and most of the time 5 seconds before the end of the race thing I would either get in front of her or she'd get in front of me!! Claire got soo mad it was funny!!! Yea....then we rode the harley davidson motercycle game!! That was interesting!! Lets say I can't drive!!! O well!! Chadd had to work to day!! He's off now but....he gets soo tired!! O well!! I love you darlin!! I don't rly have bunches to say sooo.....

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ps Chadd Love you and putt putt was a blast!! Thanx!!

Ok in reply to turrdhouse's reply ummm......putt-putt is a place where we get together and jus chill!! Its fun!! It has an arcade and you can play minature golf!! Yea!! Ok peeps....Chadd wasn't at school today due to a sore throat!! Im gonna help him w/ his paper route tomorrow!! Yea me!! I've talked to him like 3 times today by phone!! Wonderful conversations!! My aunt was jus here!! Almost the entire time she was here I was the phone either w/ Chadd or Maggie!! Oops....o well!!  Its all good though cause Tracy's cool!! We had a band and choir concert last night!!! That was sooo embarassing!! One more to go then we're done!! Yea us!! Im sooo bored!! Im gonna go!!

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Love you Chadd!!

Ok peeps...no school due to the boys goin to state!! We won by the way!!95-90!! Its soo awesome!! Chadd,Joel, mAggie, Collyn and Jessie were there!! I sat at home all by my lonesome.....YEA!!! Yeaterday at school Joel asked Maggie out to her face!! AWWWW!! Joel almost made me cry!! We were talkin about him and Maggie here's the conversation in general!!

Joel-Chadd's so lucky!!

Me-Why? Explain it to me!

Joel-He just is!

Claire-*coughin,clearin throat* He has You duh!!

Me- Come on Joel!!

Joel-Chadd's found someone that he'll probably spend the rest of his life with!!I'll never have that!!

I almost burst into tears!! Then Joel was wiggin out cause he thought I was cryin!! Mind you this was before Joel and Maggie were goin out!!Yeaterday after school I helped Chadd w/ his paper route!! It was rly fun except for the fact that I had never helped him before and I felt lost and retarded!! I also pushed on a pull open door!! It was rly fun!! I'l  definantly do it again!! That's about it.....I think....yeah!!

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Chadd-love you!!

Ok...our varsity boys bball team are the state champs!! YEA us!! I didn't go....of course!! I don't feel good at all!! My throat burns and my nose is all stuffy!! GRRRR! I felt fine friday and now I feel like poo!! Friday I came home from school and did half of my science homework!! Chadd called after that I went to take a nap!! It was like 7!! Maggie called, then Linda (Brad's mom),  then Collyn,  then Mandy (friend from Wynford), then my grandma called!! So finally at 9 pm I took my nap!! I slept till 2 in the morning!! Got up and took a shower and finished my science!! I had a headache and was really tired!! Sooo I also fell asleep in my clothes from that day!! YEA!! I think Chadd's mad at me!! I couldn't go to Putt-Putt this weekend and it was only goin to be the 2 of us.....mom wouldn't let me go!! I hate when they do this!! I spent the entire day in findally yesterday!! I get to go cell phone shopin Saturday w/ my dad! Yea! wELL im gonna go!!

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Chadd Im sry if I make you mad!! I love you sooooo much!!

OK peeps....I jus got back from a Youth Commision Meeting! Fun Fun!! Yea.....NOT!!! It's cool though cause Im helpin kids in our community find entertainment!! Chadd had to work right after school today!! 3-7! Today nothin rly happened!! Thursday we're having a talent show!! Friday is the beginin of spring break!! I might go to Putt-Putt thursdsay w/ Chadd!! If I can't go (grrrrr) Im gonna help Chadd w/ his route!! Donno yet though!! I rly wanna go.......!! I don't feel good!! my throat hurts, nose is runny, and I gots a cough!! Hope I feel better by Thursday!! *wink* ok welp I dont have bunch to say.....

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Much love to you darlin (you know who u are)

Ok...hello all! Here's a quick run down of my day!! Had a spanish and science test today!! Easy!! In algebra Matt and I were pinching each other!! I pinched his pec and he kept trying to get my boob!! Chadd was then explainin to Matt about how that was his job!! Lunch was interesting!! We talked about dolphins and if they used condoms!! I love eclipse ball!! It makes gym 3x more fun!!I broke the handle off of my locker!! Blamed it on Chadd cause he spends almost every mornin playin with it and tryin to make it fall off!! Its all his fault!! I hole for the screw is messed up!! (bad brain) So yea I spent some time "yellin" at him and threatenin him that I would "cut him off"!! Not in that way either!! My mom gave him a ride home from school!! O yea.......Im goin to Putt-Putt!1 YEAH!!!!!

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I won't cut you off....I love you!!

Ok on thursday....at school notin rly happened!! Joel gave MAggie a hug cause it was gonna be the last time he saw you for like a week!! He's goin 4-weelinin Virginia and she's goin to Florida!! Im, sadly, stuck here for spring break!! O well!!  O then at Putt-Putt.....yeah!! It was fun!! Played games, laughed at Michael!! It was soooooooooo FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!! I cleaned my grandma's house!! YUCK!! BLAH!! Then I got hame and went for a walk w/ Kasie!! We went to Dairy Snack to se Chadd!! One of the oddest moments of my life!! O well!! K im done know!! Bye!

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Chadd thanx, I love you sooo much and i'll always be yours! 

My dad is gonna get me a cell phone!! As soon as he  gets here me, Cody and dad are gonna go pick a out one!! Cody's gettin one too!! I got back from Easter....have 2 to go to tomorrow!! Yeah me!! Chadd has to work at 3!! God I love him sooo much!! I hope we last 4-ever!! We have a dance on the 8th!! I don't know if he'll go or not!! Eight Minutes Upsidown is suppoaed to play that night and he  might go to that!! I can't go....off course!!! o well!! K welll im gonna go and yea!!!  O and Putt-Putt os my new favorite place!!

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He He He!!! love you

Ok ppl....Chadd has updated his blog!! CHECK IT OUT!!! He's soo awesome!! Love him soooooooo much!! Easter was fun!! Yesterday I spent the whole day cleanin my aunt's house!! DISGUSTING!!!! Clothes pilled up to the ceilin, dog poo, dead birds, broken windows, and best of all rats!!!! NOT!!! It was sooo gross!!I know she has 4 kids and w/e but cripes women clean your house!! This is her old house cause she just moved and my mom, me, and my grandma are tryin to clean it out so that my grandparents can put it up for rent!! Then my mom also informed me that WE might buy the nasty house and live there!! This will SUCK!!! No more livin by Chadd or goin on walks w/ Kasie!! NNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!!! GRRRR! Hate change!! Oh and my cell phone sucks!! Had to take it back to my dad so that he could replace it!! Long story!! I jus got my braces tightened and now my head hurts!! Im gonna run know!!

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ps Love you sooo much and I always will!!

Ok ppl the best part so far about spring break is that is warm out!! Not scorchin hot but warm enough to wear shorts!! I just got back from a very long walk w/ Kasie and Chadd!! We went every where!!Chadd and I held hands!! I also helped him w/ his route today!! Ran into Michael and he walked the last half w/ us!! Michael also wasted 3 good cans of moutain due by shaken then up and throwin them out into the road!! Sooo STUPID!! Michael....ur dumb!! lol Yea.....guess what....I love sundaes!! Ha HA HA!! (Insider between Chadd and me) Talked to Joel last night!! Fun Fun!! Ummmmmmm............*brain fart* I dunno what else to say!! O Chadd I love you and sudaes are AWESOME....so are harley's!!!

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  Hey ppl! I helped Chadd w/ his route today!! Fun Fun!! Michael followed us around and it was fun!! The papers were late gettin in so me and Chadd went to the park and swang on the swings!! Then it was back to the paper office and there we had to stand outside and wait for slow Michael to get done baggin his papers!! Off to the route we went!! Michael bein his usual horny self kept beggin me and Chadd to make out so that he could watch!! Never gonna happen!! We stopped to buy red bull and then we finished up!! I came home and Kaise called after track to go on a walk!! Chadd went again!! We went down by St. Pete's and then turned around after Kasie stood and stared at -----'s house!! (classified info) All right I goota go eat FOOD!!!!!

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Much love to the only man for me!! 

This sucks!! It was freakin 80 two days ago and guess what...it SNOWED today!! What?! Jeez!! I swear all I did today was sit on my bum and do nutin!! Got my new cell!! Talked to Chadd and MAggie!! Chadd and I had an interesting conversation!! I  almost started to cry!! He might not be able to go to the school dance on Friday!! He has to work!! He gets off at 7 and I don't think that they'll let him in if he's late!! This might not sound like a big deal but it is!! I want him to go!! *tear* It kills me!! I won't go if he don't!! Don't see a point in goin if he's not gonna be there!! O well!! Maggie is now back from Florida!! Claire's back from West Virginia!! Oh and Claire if you read this call me!! I need proof!! Ok ummmmm.........3 1/2 months baby!! O yea!! Go us!! I'm done now!!

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I love you and I rly hope they''ll let you in!! 

I jus got back from a walk w/ Michael and Chadd!! I had to go over to Michael's to talk to him!! Chadd was my support system!! We then left Michael's and walked the streets gettin odd looks!! 1 girl and 2 guys....yea funny looks all around!! Stupid ppl!! GOSH!! Saw Chadd in glass'!! Soo cute!! Ok and Josh 3 1/2 months is how long Chadd and I have been goin out!! Oh and he will be able to go to the dance cause the dance is from 7-10 and he gets off at 7!! Oh yea!!!!!!!! Im rly tired!! Had homework in every single class today!! Chadd wasn't at school cause he was pukin...yummy....he missed out on all of the homework!! *growls* But he missed out!! *evil laugh* Joel can't go to the dance!! SRY MAGGIE!!! Ok Im gonna go know!!

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Love you Chadd!!

I have jus recieved word that Claire and Michale have split!! WHAT?!! Jeez ppl!! Any wayz.....I jus got home!! Went shoppin!! Got 2 awesome shirts and a straightener!! (It's for the dance) I helped Chadd w/ his route and that was fun too!! Talked about stuff and he laughed when my cell rung and it scared me!! He's supposed to be nice! J/K!! Im soo tired right now!! Today we discovered that Joel can only go to the dance if Mrs Wood (Maggie's mom for those who dont know) calls his dad!! Ha HA!! Thats funny!! WOW!! Collyn might come over after the dannce!! Maggie might come over before the dance and help me straighten my hair!! Go me!! Ok im done now!!

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Love you my sexy man!!

There's a dance tomorrow!! YEA!!! I can't wait!! *giggles* God im sooooo spazed right now!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! WOW!! Omg Claire and Michael are goin back out and ............ummmmmmmmm........had an assembly today!! Miss Arizona (former) came to our school and talked to us about teen depression for an hour!! It was sooo borin!! My butt went numb....o yea!! Walked home by myself today!! Chadd rode his bike sooo he jus went to the paper office!! It rained today too!! Let's see........I got whipped by Claire today! iT WAS W/ A RULER It was soo funny!! Maggie's comin home w/ me tomorrow before the dance!! Gurl time!! My mom rented Napoleon Dynamite sooo...im gonna go watch!!

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Dance will be fun!! I'll cry forever if anything ever happens to you!!

This post is dedicated to Chadd!! I was thinkin about the dance that ended about 1 1/2 hours ago!! Im sorry!! I don't wanna get into trouble! I also don't want you to be mad at me!! I love you and I always will!! You're always there for me and I thank you for that!! Idon't know what I'd do without you!! I've never felt so happy or cared sooo much about one person!! I relize that I'm not perfect and I may bother you!! But I love you!!I can't stand it when I get vibes from you!! They kill me!! When I think that I could have done something to make you mad....*tear* Im not obsessed and I don't care what ppl think!! You're mine and you always will be!! When ppl compare their relationships to ours I feel proud cause I know that we'll be together 4-ever!! You're the reason I get up in the morning!! You're why I don't stop breathing!! Thank you and im sorry!

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"It only hurts till the pain stops."

Ok ppl....my last entry was obviously dedicated to my love!! This onis soo for you!! At the dancr Friday Chadd adn I got in trouble 2 times by Mr. Fett!! Chadd's hands were "below the belt loops"! Then we were dancin adn I guess Mr. Fett thought it was not appropriate!! Chadd sang to me and that was awesome!! I LOVE WILLIE!! Sry Chadd I had to!! Maggie and Joel got in trouble 3 times cause Joel's hands were "below the belt loops" too!! It was fun!! Jessie found a man and got kissed!! GO JESSIE!!Before the dance Michael and Claire came over and we sat outside and talked!! Michael gave me a Queen concert T. Ummmm.....I came home and argued w/ my mom. I hate when she does stuff like that!! Saturday I did yard work and then went to my grandparents!! I'm still there!! We went to Church and then went out to eat!! I htink that's a basic run down of my day/weekend!! Ok then...

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Chadd I love you

Hey all!! Not too much goin one here in Upper!! Monday I rly don't remember what happened!! But i do know that Sunday for 1 1/2 hours I frisbee golfed w/ Chadd!! Tuesday is blank to me as well!! Yesterday was Maggie and Joel's official 1 month annaversaRY!! We had an assembly yesterday as well!! Got in trouble by Mrs. Calvin cause we were "talkin"!! W/E!! I hate her w/ a passion!! Today I helped Chadd w/ his route!! We had interestin conversation about masterbation and boners. Yea....ummm at school we had another assembly!! This time the Winston man came and told us about smokin!! We then saw his naked man boobs!!! He was showin us his scars from his 2 lung surgeries and 1 double bypass! YUMMY!! Im soo tired!! But hey o well!! Chadd and  I will be goin out for 4 months tomorrow!! He has to work too!! Poor baby!! I love you!! Ok peeps Im gonna take a nap till Chadd calls!! He went frisbee golfin w/ Michael and Cody after his route! Im done now...

TTFN

Ok ppl I am declaring STAINED the bestest band ever!! I heard one of their songs on the radio and I remembered that I have the CD and have never listened to it!! Well I have now and it's awesome!! YEA!! I went over to Chadd's today and we plated Bball!! It was fun!! I played w/ Nick and Chadd and I played one on one!!*wink* Anyways.....yeaterday I went to my dad's!! He almost made my step bro cry cause Cody's a lil BF!! (back fighter) He waits till the person is turned around and then hits them!! He is always pickin fights w/ my dad!! One of these days dad's gonna lose it and hit him!! My father has a VERY short temper!! Well ok Chadd had to work today and yesterday!! Poor thing!! Soo sleepy he is!! I told him to take a nap!! But hey he invited me over!! Went for a bike ride this mornin at like 9!! Me, mom, and Brad, w/ Elias in a lil wagon thingy!! Ok I'll  finish tomorrow cause i gots to go eat!!

TTFN

"Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me? Should I turn this up for you?"

                                                              Staind-"For You"

Hey all!! Sry Chadd about tellin everyone about the boner thing!! Ummmmmm...there's this huge ting goin on here!! Michael and Claire are sufferin and Michael spent the past 2 hours at my house to talk!! This will suck if they end their relationship cause then its jus not the same!! I hate the fact that I have to go in between them!! I think I jus might but out but then I get a rly bad guilty feelin in my gut!! IT HURTS!!!! I hate the fact that its tearin them apart and if they do end it'll be all awkward!! Im close friends w/ both of them!! GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! I F'in HATE this!! Not to make anyone feel bad...oh so slowly it will eat me away!! I don't even want to know what it feels like to lose the one person who means so much to you!! And I hope I never experience that pain!!!

"Safe Place"

Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road.
A road that never lets
me sleep .
So theres no way to escape the
demons I am forced to keep.

And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.

I mean the best
with what I say.
It doesn't always
sound that way
I never learned to
Work things out cause
In my family all we
Ever seem to do is shout

But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.

And when I try to sleep-
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain -
but you're so far-
Now it's time to say goodbye.
I love you baby
please don't cry -
'cause then I'll find you here -
Through your eyes everythings clear -
and I'm home inside your arms - but I'm alone for now.

But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.

TTFn

Chadd I will never do anything to hurt you!! I love you sooooo much!!

Also Im sry if  I've ever hurt anyone else and i don't mean to make you 2 feel bad if I did!!

I walked home from school and not rainin then!! I get home and mom tells me that I have to walk to the bank to cash my 4 month old checks!! Sooo..of to the bank I went!! Ran into Olivia and she went w/ me!! Half way there it started to rain!! Stopped at the Daily Chief office to talk to Chadd!! By then mind you its pouring!! Called my mom to make sure that she wasn't goin to pick us up!! Chadd left! Got to the Certified station and it was rainin so hard that you could barely see....and it was hailin jus a lil!! Olivia was wiggin out cause of the lightning. We hid under the awnin and 2 seconds later it stopped!! Continued to walk home!! Got home and my aunt and cousins were there!! Ummmm....oh Claire and Michael showed up!! Michael was so proud cause they did his route in the rain and they both were soaked to the skin!! Sooo when Claire hugged Michael it left wet boob prints on his shirt!! Go you!! Let's see........I might be able to go to Putt-Putt Saturday but I dunno yet!! Ok im gonna go know!!

TTFN

"It's been a while but I can still remember just the way you taste..."

                               Staind

                              "It's Been A While"

I went to Putt-Putt!! It rocked!! It was rainin/snowin so we didn't rly go outside!! We did but only for like half an hour!! Chadd and Josh had a dance off on DDR!! While the boys had fun Claire and I sat on the racin game and talked!! Don't ask about what.....8th period english,....and other things!! Michael couldn't go cause his mom was judgin him!! I was even lucky I got to go cause Brad said I shouldn't be aloud to go cause I do somethin w/ Chadd every weekend!! WTF!! Last week all I did was play bball for a freakin hour!! Oh then mom let me go but she kept drillin me on public groping!! Im not gonna grope Chadd in freakin public w/ freakin ppl everywhere!! Then when I got there Calire wasn't there it was jus Chadd!! Mom told Brad to bringme home if Chadd was the only on there!! Ok first of all I don't think she trust's me alone w/ him in a crowded room!! Anyways....I called Claire and her dad talked to Brad!! I was freakin lucky I even got to stay!!! Oh and Chadd made it worse!! (8th period english) GGGRRR!! I was freakin out!! Claire came and saved the day!! Thank you Claire!! Ok I think this enrtry  is now long enough!! Bye ..

TTFN

Wonderful time at Putt-Putt!! But...you made it worse!! Love you anyways!!

Ok first time doin this so if I forget you...sorry!!

Nicole S.-Thanks for lookin out for me

Nicole L.-Finally someone w/ jus as much energy as me!!

Josh-DDR....NAKED!!! EEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Michael-Its ok that your dumb!!

Claire-Thanks for bein there!! Bestest coolest ever!!

Annie-Don't worry...**** is jus jealeous....we're prettier then him!!

Joel-You're like my bro....you're also my theripist!! LYLAB

Maggie-So cute w/ Joel..keep it goin!! Have fun in history w/ your pencil!!

Becca-Your the coolest!!

Jessie-Have fun bein you!! Never let anyone tell you who you are!!

Cait-Great times!! Curt...dogs...LMFAO!!! Sorry I had to!! Luv you!!

Sara-Miss you!!

Collyn-Thanks!

And last but the most important......

Chadd-I love you!! I hope we last..great times*cough Putt-Putt cough* More to come!! Thanks for lovin me and always bein there!!

Ok ppl Im done now!!

TTFN

Im not gonna mention how much my day sucked!! My rents took me to school!! Huge drama there!! All of it ended w/ me bein grumpy!! Chadd bought me a candy bar!! MMM Good!! Joel and Spencer got into a fight!! Another big drama!! Then at lunch I had to open my huge trap!! That didn't end well either!! The convoration went ok but.....I felt sooo alone!! Everyone is gonna leave me...I can feel it!!Then my wonderful boyfriend went and told Maggie exactly what I didn't want him to tell her!! She looked at me like I was nasty and informed me that it was odd!!Ok Im sry I don't meet your standards!! Jus not a good day!! After 5th period I didn't say 2 words to Chadd!! Its ok now though!! I had a rly bad headache and didn't feel well!! Best part of my day is that Cody offered me drugs!! J/K Then when I walked home w/ Olivia today I burst into tears and coouldn't stop!! I felt better afterwards!! thanks Liv!! All I will say is that right now I feel rly alone!! I know you're all there for me and I thank you!! But the entire fact is that I know that 3 of you are talkin about me behind my back!! It dosen't bother me if its to my face but.....you have no respect!! And I rly don't care if you get mad cause it's not worth it if you're gonna talk trash!! Ok i've spoken!!

TTFN

Love you

Hey all!! I jus wanna thank all you guys who replied to me last entry!! I feel so loved!! Thursday it came ot me attention that my g-pa was in the hospital! My mom went up and stayed w/ my g-ma!! I spent the whole 2 1/2 hours alone w/ my bro!! We watched WWE!! Oh yea hot wrestlers!! Anyways I was thtinkin about the day and all the stuff I had done!! I relized that I hadn't been a good person!! I called Joel (the one person I 'd been evil to) and I apoligized!! I also explained the g-pa situation!! I was in tears by the end of the convorsation!! Then my wonderful Chadd called!! "Joel told me I should call you" Thank you Joel!! I explined it all to Chadd!! After that conversation I sat here and freakin balled!! I don't wanna lose my g-pa!! Im sooooo close to him!! I wsa flippin out!!Friday was alright!! Got to school late!! 4 tests!! I do believved I failed algebra!! O well!! But other then that Friday went well!! Ummmmm...talked to Chadd's mom!! She's soo awesome!! His bro loves me!! That's a good thing!! I'm jus glad he dosen't hate me!!Then today was Olivia's b-day party!! At first I was aloud to go but hey guess what......I wasn't aloud to go in the end!! I have a cold!! GGGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! I LOATHE MY PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean what!!!!!!! GEEZ!! It kills me you know!! Oh sooo very slowly it kills me!! I could have gone hunhgout w/ Maggie and Chadd!! Plus seen Chadd w/ out a shirt on!! But hey my lose right?! Ok yuo know what im gonna scoot!!

TTFN

Sry!! Love you!!

MY TEETH HURT!!! Allow me to explain!! I got my baces banded together!! It hurts soo bad and It looks rly odd!! It hurts!! Oh and I have a head cold!! I've been woken from a nap again!! Thanks Maggs!! Its alright though!! Chadd went lifting w/ Cody today!! Fun for them!! Michael was supposed to come over today but.......guess not!!! Im might go to a dance on friday!! Maggie also might come over and we'll chill!! And mind you Maggie's idea of "chill" is paint my fingernails!!! I haven't painted my nails in years!! Its actually kinda funny!! So far my week is goin ok!! Monday was hard though cacuse I couldn't breath and I couldn't taste my lunch because of that!! Ummmm...went for a 4 hour walk w/ Kasie sunday!! That was a blast!! I haven't actually "talked" to Kasie in 3 weeks so it was rly fun!!Today Joel made me laugh and I had milk in my mouth!! I choked on my milk and it got "stuck" in my chest!! It hurt rly bad!! I was yellin "OMG you broke my sternum!! You could have killed me!" Joel thought I was yellin that he broke my scrotum!! Oh yea bud!! Big ol ball sac hangin from my chest!! LOSER!!! Ok Im done now!!

TTFN

Much love to the man in my life!!

Hey peeps!! I don't remember the last time I updated so forgive me if I repeat a few things!! Ummm..don't remember what happened on wednesday sooo..sry!! Thursday we did a dumb thing for history!! We had to wear either a blue dot and a red dot!! It had to do w/ prejudice!! Not fun!! I will say that by lunch I was ticked!! Thanks Jessie for the free lesson!!Gym was fun though!! Full court 4on 4 bball!! At school on Friday was fun too!! The bio for english was due!  Maggie came over to my house before the dance!! We sat in my yard w/ my bro and Michael came over for a bit!! We loaded up a mail tube w/ golf balls and then fired them out of it!! It was so funny!! Then the wonderful dance!! It was hoasted by the high school wrestling team sooo all the wrestlers were there!! Well Chadd thought it would be fun to flip them off and they shined the flash light on him right as he did it!! I couldn't take it! I walked out and spent the next maybe a half hour by the wall w/ Maggie and Cait!! I was in tears!! He was soo dumb! I talked to Collyn and I lost it! Then (this shocked me by the way) Ethan came over and gave me a hug and told me it would be ok!! Here I thought he hated me!! Anyways.....Maggie came over and told me that I needed to talk to Chadd cause he was spazin!! He had come over to be before hand and tried to give me a hug but I wouldn't let him touch me!! Yea I was ticked!!Then a huge group of boys came over and did a booty shake in our faces!! That was sooooo AWESOME!! A freakin Aerosmith song came on and I lost it once again!! All I did was walk ovewr to Chadd, pulled him if the floor and  just stood there in his arms!! I cried!! I hate bein that emotional in one night!!! I went over to tell Collyn that we were ok and Ethan freakin gave me a hug and picked me clear off the floor....twice!! It was a fun dance though!! Oh and Maggie and Joel made out!! YEA!!! OK im done for now!!

TTFN

Oh yeah peeps...30% slut!!! That's freakin funny!! Am I a slut? I don't cassifiy myself as one but o well!! Ok yesterday we had a band/choir concert!! That was fun!! GO J.B.!!!!!!!!!!! <Awesome drum solo!! It was soooooo awesome!! Chadd was there!! Didn't get to talk to him though!! Ummmmm...I do believe that yesterday was a good day!! Except for the fact that Claire screeched in my ear!! Today in Algebra I was messin around w/ Chadd and Joel moved my chair and I didn't relize it!! I went to go set down and all I herd was Joel yellin "DON"T SET DOWN!!!" He grabbed me!! I will say that he os very strong cause the whole time my butt never hit the floor!! Ummmm...Claire told me she hates me today!! O well!! Don't care anymore!! Im done for now!!

TTFN

Love you, sparky!!

Ok peeps Im jus havin fun.........

Your Boobies' Names Are: Tweedledum and Tweedledee

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems. These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day. Overall, you are very content in your life. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

Your Rising Sign is Taurus

You are the ultimate rock - stable and centered. People turn to you in crisis and count on you for calm. Stubborn and strong minded, you can't be pushed around. You are also tenacious, and you always will stick with something difficult. A bit fan of nature, you're attracted to the beauty of the outdoors. And sometimes, you find it easier to relate to animals than people.

You Are the Very Gay Winnie the Pooh!

Come on, he doesn't wear pants! And he's a little too obsessed with Christopher Robin

Hello loves!! Im rly bored!! Oh guess what (before I forget) MY MOMMY"S GONNA HAVE ANOTHER BABY!!!!! Yeah a new sibling!! Wednesday I went for a walk w/ Kasie, Olivia, Shawnee, and Chadd!! Kasie smelt sooo bad!! I slept through the Vietnam Wall comin to town and all the 9,000 motercycles!!! I was woken by Olivia callin and calliin me lazy!! I was tired......GOSH!!! I went w/ Chadd yesterday on  his route!! Got mad at him!! You Are Mean!!! Geez.....ummmmm......today we went to see the Vietnam Wall!!! That was rly sad!! i got fried!! I hurt sooo bad!! My arms are 2 different colors!! As is my face!! FRECKLES!! Got a problem w/ it?OOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! It hurts!!! Chadd thinks it is funny that my face gets freckley!! SORRY!!! Im done for now soo...Oh Chadd had to work today and he didn't call me!! *tear* Oh well!! Ummmm......2 1/2 hour walk w/ livvi and um... yea>...

TTFN

I love you sooo much even if I don't act like it!!

Hey all!! I know I haven't updated in a while...been busy!! Ummm...lets see...had do to a history scrapbook!! It was kinda easy!! Ummmm......have 3 dances this week!! Incentive on thursday(along w/ a movie(sarwars3)) Luau is on friday, and a commnunity dance on Saturday!! Im apart of the commision thing for the saturday dance soo I have to go!! I don't have much to say..

TTFN

I hate bein depressed!! Chadd broke up w/ me!! At a dance too!! I mean it wasn't soo bad cause the dance was fun until the last dance!!

Me:Chadd was wrong?

Chadd: I dunno.

Me: I know somethings wrong and thats what sucks!!

Chadd:*hugs me* I don't think we should go out any more!

Me:*panics* No, no ,no.....

Chadd:I still wanna be friends. I don't wanna make you sad.

Me: Go away!! *runs to find cait*

All that I will say is that this freakin sucks!! I balled and Joel was the first person I called!! He jus made me madder and I couldn't tak it!! I am glad though that Chadd didi it to my face and not via phone or noote!! Ok well i'm gonna go mope!!

TTFN

"Don't Speak"

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Today was an overall good day!! I made it through without cryin!! Yea Me!! Im still kinda confused bout the whole thing!! Its all  good though!! Oh and I have a question for you: Why is it hta ppl want me to now go out w/ Ethan!!?? Here's my reason's not to:

                              1)Chadd jus broke up w/ me

                              2)I don't like him that way

                              3) Summer is jus 2 weeks away!! Want to be single!!

Those are my reasons!! A new problem rose to my attention today! Can't say cause I'll get into trouble!! Oh and I was informed that Chadd was goin to ask out another gurl at the dance!! After he broke up w/ me!! GOD!!! Oh and he freakin beat me at ping-pong today!! I sooooooo ha YOU

Ok I hate middle school!! It came to my attention that Chadd is gonna ask out some chick from Riverdale!! Ok you "butt" it's only been 3 days?!! I sooo badly wanna yell and scream at you but I remain calm!! On the way to the high school today I was like a "tornado full of curse words"(In the words of Cait) I was ticked!! Oh and another delema is that I "like" 2 ppl but hey thats confidential!! SRY!!! Ummmmm......lets seee...oh we had an honors assembly today!! I had to control my urge to yell at Chadd!! Joel thought that was sooo funny!! It was fun though!! Chris(Chadd's mom) came up and gave me a hug!! God Im gonna miss the love in that family!! Oh well!! Cody Harris asked me if I was wearin a bra!! (I was) Claire looked down my shirt to prove that I was!! SOoo weird!!! Claire wore PINK!!!!! HE HE HE!!!! UH i THINK iM DONE!!

TTFN

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Ok ppl I feel this song has a great meanin if you know my situation right now!!

Oh yeah babe!!!1 How freakin awesome is this?! Cait I love you even more now!!!!!!! IT"S SO PRETTY!!!! He He He!!!Ok today could have been better!! Chadd threatened to stab me w/ a pair of scissors!! And the sad part is that I don't know if he was kiding or not!! I think its funny cause he accused me of threatening him first!! All I did was dare him to cut me w/ his CD!! Yeppers i sure did threaten you!! Geez!! Oh welll!! Oh and he was talkin earlier about how he wanted to be my friend...ok threaten me!! And leats see...went for a walk w/ Michael and Kasie today!! That was fun!! Had many interesting conversations!! Ha Ha Ha!! Ok Im done!!!

TTFN

Oh Chadd im not sorry cause I didn't do anything!!

Ok today and yesterday were good days!! Chadd walked half way home w/ us yesterday!! It was fun!! Today he got wrote up cause of the T-shirt he was wearing!! It was funny!! Mrs. Minehart told him to take it off!! hE DID but then he put it back on and Mrs. Calvin yelled at him!!! He's such a loser!! Ummmm......let's see....I dunno!! Ok then!!

TTFN

Hey low!! Day one in our 3 day weekend!! Was fun!! Helped my mom!! Played w/ my bro!! Went on a walk w/ Kasie!! HAd a cook out w/ a bonfire w/ her and michael and mom and Brad and Elias!! That was fun!! Kasie and I invented a game!! Tennis ball!! Is basically base ball only w/ a tennis ball!! Its fun!! Welp im done!!

TTFN

ha Ha Ha!! The above is funny sorry!!

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 40%

Envy: 20%

Gluttony: 20%

Lust: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Greed: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 17%

You will die while sleeping - and no one will notice.

I have no pride?!

You are

You May Be a Bit Borderline ...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you're up, you're a little bit crazy... And when you're down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

"Broken Wings"

Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls

Leave the peace alone
Now we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always first to go
And who's to say
We won't end up alone

[CHORUS]

On broken wings I'm falling
And it won't be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I'm bleeding
And it won't be long
I've got to find that meaning
I'll search for so long

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love

Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who's to say
We won't survive it too

[CHORUS]

Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I'll be

Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And I'll that I'll be

[CHORUS]

I know I shouldn't miss him.....but I do!!

Ok you know what this is gay!!! Why and the freak do ppl walk up to me and demand to know syupid crap?! I wore a "Queen" shirt to school today!! I was walkin home after hunting for job aplications and frakin Brandon Lemaster yelled acrossed the street "Hey do you even know any Queen songs?" Well duh!! Why would I wear the flippin shirt of I don't know who the band is?! I name one off..."Well that's nice can you name 5?" I walked away!! If he has a problem w/ the clothes I wear then he can buy and pick them out for me!!!!!!!! CHRIST!!!!!  Only so much stupid crap i can put up w/ in one day!! Anywayz....good day!! Went on a walk w/ Kasie!! Ran into Chadd on the way back so he walked home w/ us!! God I miss him soooo bad! I don't even know why but I do!! ANd It sucks cause Olivia wrote on her sidewalk bout how I supposedly think Spencer is "sexy" and I had to explain it to him!! I felt soo guilty!! And I didn't even do anything to him!! I hate feeling like I did something wrong when I didn't!! And you know what I hope Chadd reads this and finds out!!

TTFN

Today sucked!! Yesterday I made the mistake of tellin someone who I care about my true feelings!! Well let's just say that he didn't talk to me till 8th period!! It sucked hard!! Then in algebra 3rd period Joel almost made me freakin cry!!

Joel: It's ok Madison!! Why can't you tell me?

Me:*looks over at Chadd*

Joel: Oh I see.

Me:*sighs* That and you guys don't like him!!

Joel sonded hurt when I didn't tell him adn that hurt me more!! He's my bestest friend and I can't explain anything to him!! I don't know how!! I mean I can talk to him adn tell him things but not anything about my personal life! I HATE THIS!!!!!! Ok Im gonna go......*cries*

TTFN

Hey ppl! School's finally out!! Got tons of stuff to do this summer!! V-ball, marching band, a job and of course FUN!!!! I can't wait to go swimming!! I don't feel like a freshman at all!! School being out does suck though!! I can't see my bud's or my crushes!! DARN!! But I'll get over it!! KC had a party last night!! It was really fun until the last hour!! Becky came up to me and said that Chadd thought I was mad at him cause he asked out Brooke something or other!! Ok didn't even know he did!! That was my 1st temper tantrum!! My 2nd occured when Katie came and told me to go to KC's room w/ her!!

Katie: Chadd just asked me out!

Me: What?!

Katie: Don't worry I said no!! I don't like him and I know whats goin on with you!!

Me: I need to talk!!

I went and found Ethan!! I began to rant!! I was ticked!! Then Chadd called Ethan over and I went and hid!! Ethan came and found me and told me not to worry bout it!! I couldn't help it!! Then when Chadd left I gave him a hug!!

Me: I'm gonna give you a hug cause I probably won't see you all summer!!

Chadd: OK....

Me: You know you made me mad right?

Chadd: Why?

Me: You know w/ the riverdale girl i didn't care!! Brook didn't rly bother me!! But Katie!! One of my friends?

Chadd: *mock slap* Fine be that way!! * walks away*

Me:  Fine to H*** w/ you too !!

Josie called him afterwards and he ignored everything she said!! I was soooo mad!! But I did get to wear Ethan's hat almost the whole time and the last like 5 minutes I wore his t-shirt!! It was rly fun!! Today I went on a walk w/ Kasie!! I also sat in a 2 hour baseball game!! The top of my legs are fried!! So are my arms!! Then I had to go to my cousins graduation party!! Tomorrow Claire might come over!! Im done!!

TTFN

Today was a rly lazy day!! Claire came over!! As soon as she got here we went over and got Michael!! We went to mike's and got something to eat!! Then we wandered around town!! I sat in a tar bubble cause im a RETARD!!!! It went through my fav shorts and my underware!! Oh yeah baby!! Ummm....OH we then lazed about on my patio and then Cait came down!! We did Michaels hair, I took lots of great pics!! It was sooo funny!! We then walked!! We went around the block and ended up at south school playground!! Michael and Claire left us and me and Cait jus sat there!! I then got the bright idea to call Chadd and tell him how I felt!! He wasn't home!! Michael called and left a message!! Then Chadd jus showed up outta no where!!

Michael: How'd you know we were here?

Chadd: I heard Madison squeal in the back round!!

Ok don't ask how he knew it was me cause he has never heard me squeal!! (to my knowledge) But it was funny!! Then Chadd went to go leave and I went after him!!

Me: I just wanna say I'm sry about the other day!! I still like you and I'm still kinda confused about the whole thing!!

Chadd: Oh, don't worry about it!! I can understand that!

Me: Wow I feel a lot better know!!

Chadd just laughed!!It was fun except for the fct that I sneezed like 50 times!! Stupid allergies!! I'm done!! I shall update tomorrow if I remember!!

TTFN

ps It's storming rly bad!!

OGM summer gym is rly fun!! All we did today was play mat ball!! For 3 hours!! It was fun though cause we got like 20 minutes in between games to mess around! Jessie and I played b-ball w/ Chadd and Joel!! Joel was sweating rly bad!! He shimmered!! SOOO FUNNY!! We played guys aganinst gurls!! I was guarding Joel and he kept touching me!! He knew it creeped me out cause he was all sweating!! It was nasty!! GEEZ!! It was rly fun!! Iwent to the pool w/ Cait! We spent the whole time getting flipped/duncked by Curt!! He went to flip me over and I ACCIDENTLY grabbed his balls!! He wouldn't leave me alone about that for the rest of the day!! It was a freaking accident!! I would never grab YOU  purposly! HA HA!! Ok im done!!

TTFN

ps I have l&c tomorrow!! Yay!!

Hey ppl!! Sup w/ you all?! God its been 4 days since I updated! WOW!! Ok on tuesday I had lifting and conditioning!! All upper body!! Then in gym we played soft ball!! I suck!! Then on wednesday we played tennis!! I suck at that as well!! I then went swimming at Maggie's w/ Chadd!! Maggie informed me that Chadd might ask me back out!! I was jus like "FINALLY"  About time!! GEEZ!! But then on thursday after I got back from more lifting and conditioning (lower body...still sore) Joel came up and Informed me that Chadd decided that he wasn't goin to ask me!! I was P*****!!!!!!!! He has no right to build up my hopes!! He has no freaking clue how bad he's hurting me!! I can't freaking take it anymore!! And then I see Joel and Maggie together and see how happy they are and I feel sooo lost!! Why do you do this to me?! I hurts sooo bad!! But today it was wrose cause he was talkin to me about a German exchange student he likes!! I about cried!! Then I got the bright idea to hide under a table!! Not smart!! I came up FILTHY!! It was sooo nasty!!bUt god I waas soooo close to giving Chadd another chance!! But hey his loss!! Now I don't know if I should just give up or keep lovin him! Too much drama!!

TTFN

Maddy Lou loves her Maggie Moo!!

O forgot a few things yeaterday!! Ummm we played dodge ball and Tennis in gym!! I was rly good in dodge ball but not so good at golf!! Collyn and Jason are goin back out!! tHE RELAY FOR LIFE WAS  testerday and today!! i walked yesterdasy w/ MAggie and Joel!! It was rly fun!! I just got done talkin to Michael adn Claire!! They told me that the only reason Chadd considered asking me out again was cause everyone was tellin him he should!! And he felt he was doin it for everyone but himself!! Its soo confusing!! Why and the freak didn't you just tell me that?! GOD!!

TTFN

After my grandma's yesterday my mom tok me shoppin!! I got the new Seether CD and the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack!! Both are freaking awesome!! I also got 2 books and 2 baithing suits!! It was fun!! Shoppin w/o my lil bro!! Yeah for us!! We're gonna eat soon soo.....o well!! The st pete's fest was today! I didn't go!! To boring!! I watched The Breakfast Club!! That is the bestest movie ever!! Ok im gonna scram..

TTFN

Hey ppl!! I jus got from a walk w/ Libby!! It was rly fun!! We had rly idiotic conversations!! Like that's anything new!! He He!! OMG today in gym we played floor hockey!! It was sooo fun! My team won all 4 games that we played!!  That was like the 1st time that we actually won!! YAY!!!! OH and me and Jess were talkin bout the whole Chadd issue!! I told her that I still like him, still miss him, he don't miss me therefore I will be his friend to the best of my abillity!! I will try VERY hard!! Played b-ball w/ Joel today!! He knocked the wind outta me!! Slamed his bum into my gut!! I was also knocked down and did lots of crazy jumps tryin to block the ball!! Ummmmmm............OH Maggie hit me yoday!!

MAggie: *says someything funny that I can't remember*

Me: *smiles, lokks over at Chadd*

Maggie:*smacks me*

Me OOOWWWWWWW!!! What was that for?!

MAggie: Don't mope!!!!

Me: Is it that obvious?

Maggie: You aren't alowed to look at him like that anymore!!

Me: *makes smart ass comment*

Maggie: *growls*

But yeah... she freakin smacked me!! Im sry that my mopping was that obvious!! Oh me and Libby did see Chadd on our way home!! We had an interesting talk!! Then I got my milkshake cup stuck on my hand and freaked out!! CHadd jus gave me a wierd look!! I can't help it I'm sry!!!! GOSH!! Ok im done!!

TTFN

Maddy Lou Loves Her Maggie Moo!!

Hey friends!! Im soooo bored!! ANd Im kinda hungry!! Today in gym we played soccer and yestrday we played b-ball!! Soccer was rly fun!! I accidentaly hit Coach Hurley's truck w/ the ball!! I kicked it and it went flying!! It was kinda funny!! Ok umm.......Joel and Maggie made out today(like every other day) in the staire well!! I sat there and tried hard not to watch!! i succeeded!! I was too busy watching and laughing at Chadd! Kasie and me went on a walk!! We ran into Chadd on the way!! Then we ran into Chadd and Michael!! They were in the upper cup when we were there! I oredered and argued w/ Michael!! Chadd kept looking at me!! Not that I object or anything!! But its odd!! Kasie says his look is a look of longing!! Ok well I doubt that!! God I miss him soooo much!! Oh we played Soccer in the rain!! It was a blast!! I think Im done!

TTFN

Maddy loves her Maggie Moo!!

Well I would send love to someone else..........O well!!!

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Ok im done w/ that now!! So sup? Ok I forgot to mention that on thyrsday when Maggie and I were playing eachother in scccer we kicked each other!! It was soooo funnt!! On Friday we played v-ball!! It was fun!! Maggie got mad at Joel cause he gave me a hug before he said 2 words to her or gave her a hug!! She was ticked!! I went to findly friday too!! Got home and Maggie had left a frantic message on my machine!! I called her back and found out that her mom is gonna havew another baby!! YAY MRS.WOOD AND BRAD!!!!!!!! It's soo awesome!! MAggie dosen't seem to happy bout it though!! O well!! Today I watched Chadd's lil bro!! Nick by the way!! It was fun!! I had open gym for v-ball before hand sooo....I was beat!! I came home and Brad was like I think you should go lay down!! WHAT!!!!!???? That like never happens!! I jumped at the Chance! I took a 3 hour nap!! I feel sooo much better!! ANyways.... Maggie has proclaimed no more!! It's cause Joel want's to be a good boy!! I told her at least he's not doin drugs or whatever!! MAggie has it soo lucky!! She has a guy who loves her!! O well!! I talked to Joel on the phone today!! It was fun!! We complained the whole time!!!! Ok I'm gonna post some lyrics then I m done!

TTFN

"Incomplete"

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

I'm giving up on you!!

Hey ppl!! Sry I haven't updated in a while!! Been kinda busy!! My rents and I are switching rooms!! Im now upstaires!! But anyways.....I have been moving furniture and putting up wallpaper!! My paper is cool!! Red w/ black wriing and gold flecks!! It's sweet!! Claire helped my finish my one wall today!! It was fun!! I talked to Joel last night!! We talked about what we did when we were lil!! It was funny!! I haven't seen or talked to Chadd in a few days!! It's soooo awesome to spend the summer alone and single!! i don't have to wry at all!! Ok anyways...had v-ball camp all week!! Ummmmmmmm.......Kasie's been outa town all week!! I've been watching her house!! Her rabbit peed on me!! It was soooooo gross!! EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWW!!!!! Geez....she even warned me! Oh have I mentioned that Collyn is makeing me mad!  So what if Jason is moving on and going to Putt-Putt w/ Tif-Fany!! He isn't tied down by you....he's moved on...that's what you should do!!! Im gonna go!!

TTFN

Ok you know what I know for a fact that you probably wont read this!! I dont give a rats ass about you anymore!! You treat me like shit!! You have no respect for anyone!! You talk behind our backs!! You'll have to learn that we find out what you say about us!! Keep the hole in your face shut!!! "By Thunder"<said by Maggie

I went on a walk w/ KC today!! It was fun!! We then went to her house and swim!! More fun!! Oh and about the above!! Chadd told Michael that I was ugly!! Ok well me and Libby came to the concludion that I have more muscle  on my body then he will ever have!! So HA!!! Ok i'm done !! Ta Ta!!

TTfn

I don't remember the last time I updated so forgive me if I repeat a few things!! I've been very busy this week!!

Seth Camp-1-4pm Tue.-Thurs!!

Summer League-Mon. & Wed.

Lifting and Conditioning-Tues. & Thurs. 6:30-7:30 am!!

Wallpapering- whenever I have time!!

I went for a walk w/ KC today!! Saw Chadd!! Twice!! Didn't say 2 words to him either times!! I'm sooo tired of it!! He said he wanted to be my friend....ok well Im not gonna patch it up!! I think he owes me an apology but o well!!

Off subject!! Seth Camp was fun!! 3 hours of nothing but v-ball!! I couldn't serve due to the fact that I was pinching my muscle when I swung my shoulder around!! It hurt!! Would send me into tears of pain!! But Seth taught me a new way to serve so that I don't injure my shoulder further!! The best part of that camp was the hitting!! I know the steps for the approch(sp)!! It was funn!! Im still sore though!! I can't even make it up the staires to my room!!

Joel is goin down south this weekend! Lucky!! They're not takin 4-weelers though!! He might get to ride his aunts 800!! SPEED!!! I might go out w/ MAndy's 16 year old neighbor!! The bad part is that he is like 4x hornier then Chadd!! I had enough problems!! O well!! oK well Im gonna run!!

TTFN

Maddy Lou loves her Maggie Moo!!

Good day to you all!!

Finished my room!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! God i'm sooo happy it's over!! My mom and I argued over where we were gonna put my stereo....ggggggggrrrrrrrrrr!! My choice right? W/E!!! OK and by the time I get all of my pics hung up it's gonna look sooo cluttered!!! I HATE CLUTTER!!!!!!

MOm and I aren't getting along at all!! I mean yeah she's moody and alll but geez ow!!!Enough bout that!!

HAd lifting today!! It was rly easy!! Saw Ethan today too!! Sooo cool!! I think he grew bout a foot since the last time I saw him!!

Went on a walk w/ KC today!! We stopped and played a very wet game of v-ball!! She has this HUGE beach ball and we sprayed it w/ the hose!! Lets say that when we went to hit it water went everywhere!! Oh and adivice to the gurls out there....NEVER WEAR A BLUE BRA W/ A WHITE SHIRT!!!!!!!!  But I have an excuse I never planned on gettin wet!! It was fun though!!

MAggie is at 4-h camp all week!! What is Joel gonna do w/ out his Maggie? Well he knows I'm here!! I do believe I'm done!!

TTFN

Ok we had summer legue for v-ball  today!! We sucked sooo bad!! The whole freaking game all they did was yack!! Collyn sat in the back row the whole time and laughed after every hit she missed!! I told her to knock it off and all she did was look at me like "BITCH" ok well I'm sorry if I take it a little bit more seriously then you do!! Oh and I threatened to strangle her!! Kayla's mom said it was an embarassment to Upper!! Our own coach didn't show up!! She never does soo it's nothing new!!

Ummmmm....called Joel today!! We talked bout what he could chhange his name to!! Oh and baby names for my nrew sibling!!

I do believe that's it!!

TTFN

Ok is it just me or did summer go rly fast?! There's only (about) a month left till school starts! NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing intreresting to report. Maggie & Cait are back from 4-H camp!! YAY!! My friends are home!!! WHOPEE!!!

Chadd makes rly good rice crispies!! YUMMY!! I ate them all!!

Ummmmmm.......I'll do more at a later time!!

TTFN

Hey it's been a while!! Here's a run down of the stuff I missed and the stuff you don't know about!!

Friday-Marching practice for the parade!! Got to march in the rain!! Spent the night at Megans!! Had a very interesting conversation w/ MAtt!! He didn't know I was listening!!

Saturday- Parade in the heat!! Went to the Forest fest!! Fire works were that day to but I didn't watch!! Mom and Brad went to fatrmer's market w/o me!! They saw Chadd and his grandma selling the good cookies that she makes!! Chadd made the rice crispices!!

Sunday- Went to grandma Kears!! Tendra was in town!

Monday-Summer league that only 2 people went to!! I didn't go!!

Tuesday-No lifting......YAY!!!! Watched Elias!! Went swimming w/ Cait!! Saw Chadd!! He looked at me like I was a retard!!

Wednesday-Summer league TBA's!! We played Riverdale aND lost!! It's all food though cause my serves ROCKED!!!

Thursday-Ha that's today!! No lifting today either!! I might go for a walk w/ KC if she's up to it!! I'm also kinda hungry!!

I'm done!

TTFN

Hola ppl!! Long time!! Ummm....where to start!!??

Umm....Maggie and Joel broke up!! *tear* Now Maggie and chadd are going out!! I knew it would happen!! Only not this soon!! I feel responsible in some way!! if I would have told Maggie to leave Chadd alone maybe this wouldn't have happened!! Or if I had told Joel not to worry about it it would still be ok!! O well....it was gonna happen!!

Played at the sand coutrs w/ KC all week except for today!!

CLAIRE'S BACK!!!!! WWWWWWWWWEeeeeeeee!! My Claire's back!!

Joel and I had an interesting conversation about veal patties!! It was funny!!

I went to the Crawford county fair today!! It was fun!! I'm rly tired!! O well!! Im going to my grandma's in findly tomorrow!!

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Im gonna make 2 entries today!! I feel like it!! Talked to Joel today!! Fun Fun!! He might stop over Thrusday!! The community is having a community garage sale thing and he is helping his grandma!! She lives in town so if she lets him he's gonna stop by!!

Don't ask me how Chadd and MAggie are cause I haven't taled to Maggie in a few days!!

Went to the pool w/ Cait today!! Curt (Caits bro) Is such a man whore!! Shannon and Tara were hanging all over him!! It was funny!! He kept dunking me cause I called him PorkChop!! It was a lot of fun!!

Im gonna make my other entry now!!

TTFN

I just want to let all you guys now that I'll always be here for you!! Even if its late at night or early in the morning!! I love you all and I want to thank you for being there for me!! 

I Will Come to You

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
And you don't know how or why, but you've lost your way
Have no fear when your tears are fallin'
I will hear your spirit callin'
And I swear I'll be there come what may

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

I will come to you

'Cause even if we can't be together
We'll be friends now and forever
And I swear that I'll be there come what may
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

We all need somebody we can turn to
Someone who'll always understand
So if you feel that your soul is dyin'
And you need the strength to keep tryin'
I'll reach out and take your hand

I'll reach out and take your hand

Oh I will come to you
When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You won't have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

Oh I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

I will come to you,
Oh I will come to you


I also just want to send a special thanx to my best bud......you are my rock!! Without you I would fall to pieces!! I know you already know this......thank you......you are my best friend!! I rly don't know what would be going on right now if I hadn't have met you!!! I'd be very lost!! But just remember Im always here for you when you need me.....even when you don't want to talk.....I'll always be here!!Thanks again!!

Hello ppl!! I talked to Maggie!! She is soooo into Chadd!!! Well all I can say is that I'm glad you both are happy!! I also hope it stays this way.......ha ha ha!! Oh and Chadd.... Maggie says you read my blog to count how many times you name comes up......don't you have anything better to do?

I have open gym to day!! Whooo....!!! It was 100 degrees today....then it rained!! Not 100 anymore!! It was freaking 80 at 9:30 in the morning!! GEEZ!!!

Talked to Joel twice today!! His dad updated me on my phone manners!! Thanx Troy!! Ok anywayz.....some family came to look at his house!! The 16 year old daughter was checking him out!! Ha Ha Ha!! Joel you know you liked it!! GEEZ!! Ok im done...

TTFN

Have you ever just wanted to bang your head up against the wall?! Ok well that was my day in summery!! All my mom did to me today was dumb shit!! I had to get up at 5:30 for lifting.....didn't get a nap when I got home!! I feel like I drank a whole bottle of Niqual!! Why doesn't someone just shoot me!!?? AAAHHHH!!!! Today sucked rly hard...almost to the point of blood......

Also have you ever had the  feeling that someone's tearing your heart in 2?! That's another part of my bad day!!! The best part is that the person doesn't even realize what they're doing!!!! God........I hate the pain that comes w/ loving someone too much......

Oh and if there are ppl out there who think I complain too much.....to hell w/ you!! You all know you'd do the same thing soo don't judge me!!!!!!

TTFN

Ok a few words to those nosey ppl out there who think im slifhtly obsessed *cough Chadd cough* Mind your own damn buisness!! OK? I rly don't care what you think right now!! Fuck Off!!

Vball conditioning all week.....and freshman band camp as well!! Yay....fun fun!!! It sucks cause it's so hot!! Blah!!

Haven't heard from Joel in like 3 days!!! I've about had enough!! I didn't do anything wrong!! I just couldn't take it anymore!! So I spilled!!! I regret it if it makes a difference!! I should have known that nothing was gonna happen.....besides losing my best friend!! DAMMIT!!!

On the contrary.....stay outta my buisness and I'll stay outta yours!!

Hey all!! Im in a better mood today!! Whoo!!

Band camp.....ow!! I hate marching!!! Im so sore!! My thighs....oww!!! But Im gonna be positive!! My thighs will be rock hard by the time school starts!!(2 weeks) All muscle baby!!

Vball conditioning is over now!! Piece of cake!! Try outs are monday & tuesday!! I'm flipping out!! What wqill happen if I get cut?! That would REALLY suck!!

Went swimming today!! Fun Fun!! My face is burnt rly bad though!! My nose hurts rly bad!! So does my hand!! I stabbed myself w/ my thumb nail!! OWWW!!

Ummmmm.........Mom's gonna have a baby boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TTFN

Tryouts were today aND YESTERDAY!! Im pleased to inform you all that I made freshman!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I soooooo excited!!!!! KC made Varsity swinger!!! (she'll dress varsity but play jv) WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok Ummmmmm Joel woke me up from my nap today!! I've talked to him twice since my last entry!! But today Jacob told him to aks me if aI like Joel as a boyfriend!!!

Joel-I know the answer to that!!

Jacob-What?!

Joel_I dunno or maybe I think!!

At that point I slammed my head on my floor!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!The answer insn't "maybe"!!!!        It's

                                           YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok Im done!!!

TTFN

Ok Brad just got done getting a bat outta my room!! I was sitting on my bed and watching a movie and finishing my plates!! I saw something move on my floor and I looked over and the freaking bat was crawling out from under my cedar chest!! Let my say that I've never gone down the stairs that fast!! OMG!!! It scared the living crap outta me!!! Brad and Mom said the dumb thing was still down stairs!! Geez ow ppl!

Cait had a party tonight!! It could've went over better!! I was upset cause Chadd and Maggie were whisoering then looking at me and laughing!! I don't deal well w/ that stuff!! I told Maggie that if he attemted to talk to me I would hit him!! Then they got a bright idea to play 7 minutes in heaven!! The whole time it was being discussed (it never happened) Chadd was watching me as if to see my reaction!! Of course it's gonna make me mad!! GOD!!

Curt is my new buddy!! After the whole Maggie and Chadd laughing thing I called Joell and was on the verge of tears!!! Joel helped me! The whole time Curt is being all nice and trying to help me!! Thanks Curt!! And Joel!!

Maggie I know you'll read this.....don't be mad at me cause I hate Chadd!! I can't help it!! He picks at me I will sure as hell pick back!!

Thanks Cait!! I finished the plate!! Soooo purtty!

TTFN

Hey ppl!! God is't been awhile!! Ok I updated on saturday of last week!!! Lets see.......

Sunday-ummm........I think I might hve went for a walk!!

Monday-Friday-Band camp!! Last week of the tourture to!! WHOOP WHOOP!!

Ummmm....vball all week!! I swear I've never sweated soo much before! I kinda smeel too!! Yuck!! Im gonna take a bath in a lil bit!!

Booster kick off was tonight!! It was fun!! I had to prefomr w/ the band!! Then it was run and change then get w/ your teams!! It was rly cool!! It also started to rain!! That was the best part!!

8th grade orentation was yesterday!! Got to see everybody! Saw Joel!!! He's soooo skiny!! WOW!!! I'll posat my schuldue in a minute!!

talked to Joell on the phone today about Alyssa's party!! Which I rly hope he goes to!! Collyn said something about playing a "game"!! A makeout game.....her and Jason......oh yeah!!! That conversation still makes me giggle insanely!!!! God I love talking to him!!

Ok here's my weekend....Shopon w/ KC on saturday after the car wash!! Then I'm staying w/ my grandma in findaly!! Oh yeah!!

My scheledue thingy.....

1st-Choir  Headings

2nd-AP english    Lininger

3rd-Biology     Harper

4th- Geometry     Neiderkohr

5th-Ram Sessions/study hall/ C lunch..........w/ hurley.......i have lunch w/ Joel!!!!!!!!

6th-American History         Will

7th- Band      Thacker

8th- Spanish 2      Gottfried.....also have this w/ Joel!

Ok im done!!! Oh I might get my Homexoming dress saturday!!! Any suggestions?

TTFN

Oh I'm sooo happy!!! WHOOP!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........ha ha ha!!! Sry.......whooo....

Alyssa had a party!!! It was fun!!! Joel was there!!! We watched a lil bit of Hide And Seek!! A rly odd movie!!Then me and Kelly went outside and Joel came to!!They were playing truth or dare and Alyssa dared me to kiss Joel and I flipped!! But it ended up ok!!......We were sitting on Alyssa's  hill in her yard!!  Here's the whole thing!!

Me-Who you going to homecoming with? *names ppl*

Joel-No......I probably just go w/ the girl that I was gonna ask out!!

Me-Well am I alowed to know who she is?

Joel-Well I think you might know her!

Me-*silence*......Are you gonna ask me or not!!??

At that point there was a shooting star!! He saw it 1st.......so I told him to make a wish!! He did....and then he asked me!! Ah ha ha....I flipped out!!! My heart was like doing flips in my chest!!

Ok I'm ok now!! We had a car wash today for vball!!! It was rly fun but Im like fried!! My back and shoulders are toasted!! Owwie!!! I saw Joel today as well!! He was w/ Grandma Kramer!! At that point I was dry but right after he left Eileen attacked me w/ the hose!! I was soooo soaked!! It felt rly good but then it got kinda cold!!

I went shopping w/ KC!!! I bought 3 pairs of paints that totally squeeze my ass!!! They're hot!!! Oh yeah!! I also got 3 shirts!! And I saw the prettiest homecoming dress!! It was purple w/ a black covering over it!! It's a thin strapped thing!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! I want it soooo bad!! It was  B-E-A-utiful!!!

I had an half hour conversation w/ Joel about creativity!! Lets say that neither on of us can draw w/ a poop!! But it's all good!!!

Alyssa's party was still soo awesome!! Thanx Joel!!

I'm done!!

TTFN

I don't know whats up w/ me but I feel rly hott!!! I just got up!!! My hairs brushed but a mess and I look like hell!! Im wearing a wife beater and athletic shorts that hang down past my knees!! Maybe its the fact that my shirt squeezes my slim stomach!! Or just because I feel like i'm the hottest and no one can touch me!! Or it could also be the fact that I almost beat the crap outta Cody!! OR I think it's the fact that Im going out w/ a total hottie that I love!! MUHA HA HA!!! Oh yeah i feel pretty....oh so pretty...*sings*

I woke up this maorning at 11:15!! Cody was trying to put shaving cream in my hand!! Macy was telling him I was gonna hurt him when I woke up!!He came in and I told him to leave me alone or his head was gonna go through the wall!! Im not very happy when I awakened by some aorrogant, pushy, lieing, loud 13 year old boy!! God i just want him to go away and leave me alone!! Blah!! ALrighty Im done for now!! Im gonna go to quizfarm and take some quiz thingies!!!

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Alrighty....it's been 7 days since my last entry!! Sorry I rly can't help it!!

Yesterday KC and I were on our way home and it was raining we were coming by the old lumber yard and a car cameoutta nowhere!! It hit KC!!! I was behind her and I saw the whole thing!! I still get the shakes when I think about it!! She did a vball slide on the ground to protect her head!! I was sooo freaked out! Brad (the knight w/ the shiny head) saw the whole thing!! He was going to go pick up me mom and Elias when he drove past!! He took me and KC to KC's house and I stayed there w/ her for a bit!! At least till I knew she was gonna be alright!!  If the guy would have been going any faster KC could have broken bones....or worse! I wouldn't be able to stand that!! I still have this guilty feeling in my gut that I should have went first!! It should have been me to get hit not her!! And KC I don't care what you say....I still think it was my fault and that I should've been the one to get hit!!

On my way home from KC's I called Joel in tears!! He wasn't home so I left a very teary message!! He callled me back and I talked to hm for an hour!! I got into trouble!! He calld back like 10 minutes later to apollogize to my mom!! He's soooo sweeet!!! I've never had that happen before!!

Cheack out KC's blog for the tale and the thing that made me cry......again!! kcvballer09 

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Heylo ppl!! It's been a lil while. High school is awesome!! I love it!! Excpecialy the convo's at lunch!! Ranging from my underwear to 4-wheeling. I was gonna go w/ Joel this weekend since it's a 3 day weekend....BUT his daddy had to work!! AAAAAHHHHH!!! And I was so looking forward to it.

Vball is going rly good!! We've had 2 matches so far. We're 1-1!! I guess that's good to start out w/! We play Willard on Tuesday!! Thursday we're supposed to play Shelby but they don't have a freshman team. O well!!

I got my hair cut. KC says it looks rly good!! I like it! It's kind short. But I'm also used to my hair being rly long!! I 'll get used to it!! I can't wait to see Joel's face.

Marching band is going rl well too!! The football team is 1-1 as well!! We beat Bucyrus 35-28 last night. I didn't get home till 11:30 though!! And Thacker yelled at us cause when we marched outta the stadium the front half of the band got WAY far ahead. So naturally the back half ran trying to catch up!! Wlee Thacker informed us that we were still performing and it was not a good thoing to split up the band!! OK well it was either split up or.......get RAN OVER by a freaking CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Geez!!!

Maggie and Chadd had a huge drama the other day!! But it's all good!!

I'm gonna post lyrics then I'm done

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"Waste"

Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know

It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you

But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste

How could you paint this picture?
Was life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me

But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste

Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?

WELL FUCK THEM!
AND FUCK HER!
AND FUCK HIM!
AND FUCK YOU!
For not having
The strength in your heart
To pull through!
I've had doubts!
I have failed!
I've fucked up!
I've had plans!
Doesn't mean
I should take
My Life
With my own hands

But these words
They can't replace
The life you...
...the life you waste

But these words
The don't replace
The life you...
THE LIFE YOU WASTE

And no....nobody killed themselves...YET!!!

OMG ppl my arm hurts so freaking bad!! I don't know what I did so don't ask! I can't lift t a certain height and it rly hurts!! I also have this HUGE bruise on my knee from vball!! We were doing slides and I smacked my knee on the floor!!

I had 3 conversations w/ Joel today!! On the phone anyway!! Jacob was in the backround "crying" causse he wanted to talk to me! I feel so loved!! I've never had anybody wanna talk to me that bad!! Joel was happy today at lunch!! It was funny!! I didn't get to see him before school cause of bus evacuations!!It was ok thogh cause 1st period was cut short due to an assembly!! So I did get to see him!!

Michael and Claire are no more!! He was over at my house for an hour!! We just sat and ate and talked!! It was fun!!

I did have an oppertunity to go over to Joel's on Monday!! It never happened though!! My parents didn't feel well and didn't just wanna drop me off and then leave!! Sooo Ididn't go!! I felt rly bad cause I wanted to go!!

I just burnt 2 CD's!! I'm soo proud of myself!! Whoop Whoop!! O yeah baby!!

Vball was rly fun tonight!! It was also rly easy!! But that's just my oppinion!! Our 1st home match is tomorrow! Freshman don't play cause Shelby doesn't have a freshman team!! Oh well we'll just get to sit there and be bored!!

Our stupid hats aren't in for band!! The STUPID ppl screwed up the order!! We ordered them in April....of last year!!! How dumb are they? I have to braid my hair.....again!! Joel will be at this game too!! Oh well a happy ending to a bad night!!

Ok welp Im outie for now!!

TTFN

Love you!!

I just got dona "cleaning" my room! It was ucky!!

The football game sucked friday!! We got SPANKED!!!! It was soo bad 35-7!!Joel was there though!! I went to give Ethan a hug and I saw Joel standing behind him!! I completely ran through Ethan to get to Joel!! Ethan laughed so hard...it was funny!! We walked around for a bit then I was almost late getting into the stands!! Oopps!!! My bad!! But it was all good cause I got to see Joel and he bought me a water!! It was a blast!!

Our marching band was like 3x better then their band!! It was fun!! They had like 30 ppl to our 84!! It was great!!

I went over to KC's yesterday to watch a movie!!! She was soo wired it wasn't even funny!! She was running around her house w/ a blanket over her head!! I laughed soooo hard!! It was great!!!

Vball yesterday was bad!! I had to line judge!! The coaches were yelling at me!! I made all the right calls!! But they're dumb!! I've line judged since I was in the 6th grade....I know what I'm doing!!! Stupid ppl!!! GEEZ!!!

Alright I have a slight headache.......So later

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I love you!!

This is ginna be a quicky.....*laugs at how wrong that sounds*!!! Fair is all week!! I just got back!! I walked around w/ Joel!! We couldn't find a "quite place"....I felt bad!! It was rly fun though!! It'll be a month next monday!! Whoop!!!! The car show is the 24!! Oh yeah baby...muscle cars.....*drools*!!! Hell Yeah!! Alll righty then I'm gonna go look for a dress for homecoming!!! Which is like 3 weeks away!!

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Its all over!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! Why?!! I walked around yesterday w/ Joel for like 4 hours!! His mommy took me home last night too!! It was sooo much fun!! He picked me up cause I'm short!! But it was sooo cool! I've never had anybody be able to pick me up before!! It was sooo freaking awesome!! I wore my hair down and he was playing w/ it!! I was sooo proud to cause I did't wear any makeup last night!! It was soo fun!! I've never laughed so hard before!! We didn't go to the dance either!! I do believe that I had more fun just walking around then I would have if I went to the dance!! The dance was rly boring last year!! But i don't care cause we did dance and it rocked!!

We lost our football game......AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! God we suck soo bad!! 13-55...yeah we suck!! The band is sooo better for the football team!! Sorry but its true!! O well!!

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I love you......bunches!! Thanks for the great time Saturday!!

I love it!!! Ha ha ha!! It's been 1 month for me and Joel as of Monday!! WHOOPIE!!!!!!! So happy!! I love him sooo much!! He gave me a squeez hug today!! I love the feeling I get after he hugs me. Especially when they're squeez hugs!! Squeeze hugs are the best!! Wow, I feel rly evil all of a sudden!! We had a rly "funny" conversation at lunch today!!! It sent me into a fit of giggles!! Oops!!!!

Maggie and Chadd are no more. Huge drama thingy!! Don't wanna ruin my mood so I'm not gonna explain it!!

I just turned in my essay for anv. eng. It was so screwed up!! I hate it!! Blah!!! Ok welp I'm gonna go........

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Love you more then you'll know......

Hey peeps!! Waz cracking? OMG do you realize that its been 18 days since my last enty.....!! Sorry bout that!!Had a lot going on!!

Car Show was the 24! Fun Fun in the RAIN!!!! Me, KC, Kristy, She;by, Kayla, Collyn and Elieen walked around for a while!! Michael and Chadd walked us home!! That walk was VERY interesting!! Michael ended up losing his pants and walking down the street half naked!! Joel was there but couldn't stay!! The next day I bought my hc dress!!

We got 3rd in our freshman turnie for vball!! SO proud of my team....but cant wait till the seasons over!! I just ain't feeling it for the game anymore. That and I jus....well n/m.....cant speak my opinion!!

Homecoming was last night!! Fun!! Loads and Loads!! Saw Andy for the 1st time in forever!!! Everybody looked so pretty!!! Joel picked me up at 5:30.....but for like 15 munutes we took pics!! My aunt and Grandma were there!! I thought my grandma was gonna faint at one point!! She kept telling me that I looked so thin and grown up!!!  My grandfather asked me wear the rest of my dress was!! (it was spegetti strapped) Joel looked so freaking AWESOME!!!!! WOW!!!! I knew he was hot but WOW!!! We ate ar Mugsy's!! Yummy.....we split a chocolate bomb!!! That was rly yummy!! The dance part was fun too!! It was rly cold though!! We stood inn the back w/ Nic, Jess, Jason, Scott, Maggie and Mariah!!! I was running around with Michaels hat on!!! I make bowler hats look hot!! Maggie and Scott are going out now!! *whoop whoop*Scott and Joel were doing a dance from the Fresh Prince Of Bel Air...omg it was sooooooooo FUNNY!!!!!! It was soo much fun!!

The homecoming game was sooo cool!!! We beat Galion 56-8!! Our 1st NOL win I believe!! ACTUALLY OUR 1ST WIN PERIOD!! Poor guys!!! Oh well!! OMG there was a streaker!! It was so f-ing hilarious!!!! Now mind you that it was like 40 degrees that night!! BBBBBRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Joel won't be at school tomorrow or friday!! He's currently at camp for FFA!!! He won't get back till llike 3 o'clock tomorrow!!! I won't get to see him!!! So basically saturday was the last time I would see him till tuesday!! And Friday he's going to west virginia to 4-wheel!! I wanna go!! O welll!!!!!

Ok well I outie!!!

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Love you sooo much!! Thanx for an awesome night!!

Alrighty ppl!! Hey.........not a good last couple of days!!

Joel wasn't at school on friday!! He therefore missed out on my breakdown!! I spent the entire 8th period bawling!! Cory Kramer (Joel's cousin) supposedly thinks he saw me hanging all over some guy at the vball game on Thurdsday!! He's gonna tell Joel.....here's the problem....IT WASN"T ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was Gretchen!! And I'm sorry but I look nothing like Gretchen!! She was hanging all over her bf and Cory thought it was me!! I was flipping out and started to cry!! I don't know what I'll do if Joel believes Cory over me!! I can't lose Joel!!! I just can't!! He's the "IT" thing for me! I would never do anything like that to him.....NEVER!!!!!!! I hope I can get to him before Cory does and work this out cause it wasn't me!! I cried myself to sleep last night.. that's how much this is bothering me!!  That's my latest problem...

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I love you and I hope you know that I would NEVER do anything to hurt you!!!

http://www.flashplayer.com/animation/drugsinyourhead.html

Click on the squirrel and ignore the pop ups!!

go to this thing!!! Its freaking hilarious!! But sooo not suitable for children!!!

Today is Joel and me's 2 month anniversery!! Yay!!! I got this rly sweet note from him and it about made me cry!! Have you ever had anyonesay rly sweet things to you and you just feel like falling to the floor and bawking your eyes out!!?? Well that's how I felt!! It was sooooooo sweet!! He also gave me one of his school pics!! Soooo Handsome he is!!! He He HE!!!! Ha.....sry.....oh and his ears turn rky red at times......don't ask me why......how would I know.....*guilty laugh*.......

My arm hurts rly bad!! I'm a band geek ok and I was playing my bass clarinet and I didn't have a neck strap on sooo I was supporting the weight of this thing w/ my right arm and thumb! My thumb is currently swollen and hurts!! Oh and I have a headach!! And NO I'm not whinning.....

VBALL IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG can you tell I'm excited?! No more practice...games....It's all over!!!! The only thing left iis sectionals saturday!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm yours forever and always!!! Love you!!

"Skin"

[Hidden Track]

Sarabeth is scared to death
To hear what the doctor will say
She hasn't been well
Since the day that she fell
And the bruise, just won't go away
So she sits and she waits with her mother and dad
Flips through an old magazine
Till a the nurse with a smile
Stands at the door
And says will you please come with me

Sarabeth is scared to death
Cause the doctor just told her the news
Between the red cells and white
Something's not right
But we're gonna take care of you

Six chances in ten it won't come back again
With the therapy were gonna try
It's just been approved
It's the strongest there is
I think we caught it in time

Sarabeth closes her eyes
And she dreams she's dancing
Around and around without any cares
And her very first love is holding her close
And the soft wind is blowing her hair

Sarabeth is scared to death
As she sits holding her mom
Cause it would be a mistake
For someone to take
A girl with no hair to the prom

For, just this morning right there on her pillow
Was the cruelest of any surprise
And she cried when she gathered it all in her hands
The proof that she couldn't deny

Sarabeth closes her eyes
And she dreams she's dancing
Around and around without any cares
And her very first love was holding her close
And the soft wind is blowing her hair

Its quarter to seven
That boys at the door
And her daddy ushers him in
And when he takes off his cap
They all start to cry
Cause this mornin where his hair had been
Softly she touches just skin

And they go dancin
Around and around without any cares
And her very first true love is holding her close
And for a moment she isn't scared

And no theres nothing wrong w/ me....this song touches me.....

Hey alls!!

I've been up since 9 o'clock!! Cleaning up tp!! Thanx KC!!! Yeah Kc, Alyssa, Collyn, Annalee, amd I think Kara got my house sooo bad!!! Shredding and everything!! Oh and Collyn thanx for the FORKS!!! I about broke my damn ankle!!! Didn't see them there!! Geez.....oh but don't worry ppl...you'll get it back!!

Ummm tirck or treat was last night!! Walked w/ my parents, aunt and uncle and brother and cousins!! It was cold!!! BRRRRR!!!! Saw Joel though sooo it made my night 300x better!! It was fun though!! The streets were packed.. Cait had a party but I wasn't allowed to go due to the fact that I didn't get up until 11!! OOPS!!! Oh well!! That is also the reason that I couldn't go to Roxanne's w/ Joel!!! Not my fault that the fraking football game wasn't over until 12!! GOSH!!!

I asked Joel the other day if he knew how much he loved me!!! He has no total idea!!! He He he!!!!

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I love you more and more everyday!!

Hey alls!!! How's it cracking?!

OMG today was student/parent swap day!! So funny to see all the parents wander around lost!! Except for the fact that they stare rudley!! Geez and they yell at us for staring at ppl!! Hypocrites!!

Travis Rall stomped on my toe today!! I attempted to trip him and  he tripped!! It wasn't anything major but instantly he stomped on my toe w/ his big damn cowboy boots!! My foot was numb for like an hour.

Joel was in a RLY good mood today!! He should always be that way!!It was fun!! The other day he wore his steal toe boots to school and before clas I was walking on his feet!! That was freaking fun by the way!! If he would've been wearing his tennis shoes I would've broken his toe!!

Saw the music video for FOB's "Dance Dance"!! His guitarist is freaking HOT when he licks his guitar!!! *gets chill* Me and Joel had an interesting convorsation about that today....*laughs* That was soooooooo  funny!!! Don't ask!!!

Joel: This is a lil tribute to you!! I love you sooo much!! I'm glad you're finally mine!! Nothing will ever stop my from loving you!! I know we'll last a VERY long time!! I'm looking forward to every minute of it!! I have the awesomest times when I 'm w/ you!! And the awesomest convorsations...ha ha ha!! I love you.....thanx for everything!!! And you'll never EVER know how much I love you!!!! BAM!!!! Love you......forever!!

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*refer to paragraph above* Love you.......

Het ppl!! I don't know why I'm updating!! Not rly a lot to say!! My head hurts though...and I feel like crap!! I'm tired and I still feel like an ass!!

Bright side! I'm at my grandparents house!! My grandma has adopted 3 baby kitties!! They're so adorable!! I had them outta their box yesterday night and the one was chewing on my toes!! The lil grey one followed me around every where!! Sooo....cute!!

My mom informed me that she's going crazy!! She called me and asked me when I was coming home!! Elias has her watching Toy Story! Last I heard it was time #4!! Ha ha ha....sucks to be her!!

Went to a diner theatre last night!! Wynford singers are freaking awesome!! B-E-A-utiful!! Awesome voices.....sweet!! But oh well!!

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I love you!

I know its been a long time!! Sorry!! Lots going on lately!!

School is the brightest part of my day!! I get up..get yelled at...then get to see the guy who loves me and my friends who love me as well!! I live just to get to see them everyday!! BUT I actually WE (Joel and Me) got into trouble for hugging after school!! Mr. Harper about had a freaking heart attack!! "If I'm not alowed to do it then you aren't either" Well who in the hell is your ass gonna hug??!! HUH? God....I swear he feeds of the romance that goes on at the school!! Teases all the couples....*gags* Ew!! Oh and why does he let ppl makeout right outside his door BUT he sees me hugging someone he blows a gasket?! Oh and the next day in class he embarassed me in front of everyone!! I swear to god my face was 4 different shades of red!! Why don't you mind your own buisness old man?!

Ok nowon to brighter things!! It'll be Me and Joel's 3 month anniversary next Saturday!! Whoop Whoop!! We MIGHT (god i hope we do) go to a movie!! I think we'll go see the new HP!! If it's alright w/ my Jolly Joel of course!! Ha ha ha!! That's great!! I'm so excited!!

Went to KC's yesterday!! On the way home we were walking and all of a sudden KC's like "is that an animal in the street?" I flipped out cause it was a freaking dead opposum!! Scared me to death too cause you could see it's guts/brains laying on the street!! Ew!!!! It's rly nasty to look at in broad daylight too!! YUMMY!!!

Went to Dollar General w/ me mommy today and the cashier lady was asking mom all these q's about the baby!! "Are you having twins?" NO "Well that boys gonna be at least a 13 pounder" Mom just laughed!! She has 4 wekks to go and Evan weighs 8-9 lbs!! He'll be at least 12!! He was moving around last night and I felt him!! It was kinda nasty yet rly cool!! It's like there's an alien in my mom's belly!! It was sweet!

I'm going to see my dad tomorrow!! If any of ya'll need me call my cell!! Or I should be online if that works better for you!!

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Thanx for making my day brighter!! I love you!!

OMG I forgot to say that yesterday my bro actually crapped in the toilet!! It was soo funny!! He was like all crying and w/e and he was soo upset!! We gave himhugs and let him flush his own turds down the pot! It was soo funny!!! He finally did it though!! Go ELIAS!!!!!

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Sendin love to my knight!!

OK well today was a VERY interesting day!! !st off our freaking school caught fire!! Oops!! Something in the boiler room started so smoke!! Next thing you know the alarm is going off and we're all running outside!! Now mind you it's like 32 degrees outside!! I was numb!! Everyone was running to their cars and stuff! The teachers told us to go to the complex and half way there they told us to go into the gym to wait it out! We sat in the gym for and hour and a half!! We ate lunch there!! The school smelt sooooo freaking bad!! It was gagging!! AEP had to shut all the power off and crap so we went and sat in the balcony!! It was actually kinda fun!! I was freaking out cause I didn't know where Joel was but he found me!! It's kind wierd how a catastrophe (sp) can make you realize how much you really love that person!! I mean I know/realize that I love him more then I love life but I came to reality today!! Cause I didn't know where he was or if he was okay!! So I was flipping out!! Nichole was giving me hugs and trying to reassure me and I was bout ready to cry and I was shaking RLY bad! I love him so much!!

We had our vball banquet tonight!! Same old bull!! Massarra started to cry!! SHe announced the fact that she wasn't coming back!! Not a single person cried!! It was actually kinda funny!!

Alrighty well I beter run!!

TTFN

I love you!! And I did know that but the whole thing made me realize how much!!

Happy 3 month anniversary to me and Joel!!! Yesterday was a perfect day for it too!! The sun was shinning!! YAY!! And I think it was like 50 degrees too! Oh yeah baby!!!

Joel and I went to the movies to see HP on friday!! He came home w/ me after school! We watched The Crow!! My mommy ordered us pizza too!! It was fun!! As soon as we got to my house Elias dragged Joel into the living room to watch Buzz and Woody!!(toy story) It was soo funny!! Mom then laid Elias down for a nap and mee and Joel watched the crow!! Pizza ordered....blah blah!! Oh I smacked Joel in the balls by accident too! Oops :(!! I didn't mean to or nothing!! He ahd this Tigger tooy just outta my reach and I let my hand drop....and yeah!! It was bad!! (I'm rly sorry!!)My bro stayed at my grandparents while we went to the movies!! Soo when we went to go pick him up me and Joel went inside!! Well Elias drug Joel into the play room to see the toys!! It was soo cute!! My grandpa drilled Joel!! That was pretty much the end of our WONDERFUL night!! :)

Umm...yesterday we had family pics!! Then we went to go pick up Elias' bday cake at Joel's house!! His mom made the cake!! I got to see my man in he sexy hunting clothes!! ;) Ha ha ha!! It was great!! I now know what half of the inside of his house looks like!! Whoop Whoop!! I then went home and took a nap!! Ahhh!! Joel called me and then I got restless and took a shower!!

Elias' party is today!! I've been cleaning saince I got up this morning! Funn Funn!!  I'm kinda tired!! Im gonna go!! I'm kinda hungry!!

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I love you and thank you for a WONDERFUL evening!! It couldn't have been better!!

Hola all!!

Ok here it goes...on wednesday my mom had my new bouncing baby bro! Evan O'Connor Wright, 9lbs 2 oz, 20 3/4 inches long!! He wasn't as big as we thought he was gonna be!! I stayed at my grandparents for 3 days w/ Elias!! He was sick the whole time so it was great bunddles of fun!!Uhhhh....he is now home and all that jazz!! I got 10 smiles outta Evan today!!! Soo cute is he!! The only bad part is that him and Elias share the same b-day!! They're 2 yrs apart, 2hours different in the time they were born and they have the same birthday!! Creepy!!!

Ummm...Ted (Brad's dad) got Elias a pure blood german shepard for his b-day!! He's soo cute!!

Thanksgiving morning we had to ruch Elias to the hospital!! He couldn't breath!!  He has the croope (wierd cough that makes you sound like a coon dog) and a viral upper respitory infection!! It wasn't fun!! Me and mom were bawling and the whole house was upset!

I went to my grandparents for thanksgiving!! I was the only one in MY family who went!! It wasn't all that great!! Good food of course but......I feel rly outta place in my family!! I don't know why!! I just don't feel right there anymore!! It's kinda wierd!! It was kinda fun though!! Our fridge is full of food that ppl sent home w/ me and form Linda's(brad's mom) and Ted's (brad's dad) No room for anything in that fridge!!

We've had the past like 9 days off of school!! Funn Funn!! I get to get yelled at by my dicky step-dad!! Whoop Whoop!! Go me!! NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait till school starts again!! I get to see Joel!! That's the best part!!:)

Last night I did conscession for the gurls bball game!! It was season opener soo it was packed!! Over 100 ppl!! It was bad!! Our varsity lost by 1 point!! :(!! Boo!!!!! Gosh!! It sucked!! I discovered that I can't add to save my life!! Yeppers I'm dumb as dirt!!

Joel is currently down south for thanksgiving!! He left this morning!! I've talked to him a  lot this week!! It was soo fun!! I smile just thinking about him!! But Hey who says that's a bad thing?! ;)

TTFN

I love you!!

hey all!! It had been a vry long time since I last updated!! Sorry!! I've been busy!!

Joel's b-day was the 1st! He is soo 15 days older then me!! It's ok though!! WE had a snow day on friday!! On thursday I wore Joel's Ford sweatshirt!! Well I didn't give it back after school so I still have it!! It's freaking awesome to heve something of his...in my house!! I'd rather him be there but it's all good!! But I haven't seen him since thursay and I rly wanna hug!!!

The snow day was rly fun!! I went over to KC's and we covered Nick Boes' car w/ snow!! You couldn't even tell there was a car there. We went and found Michael and made him come out and play w/ us. We went to south and played in the drifts. We were trying to take Michael out but he fell in a drift!! Me and KC jumped on him and smeared his face in the snow and KC shoved a huge clump down his shirt!! It was great!!

Last night KC tok me to Polaris!! I've never been there before soo it was rly fun!! That place is freaking awesome!! that place is huge! I saw like 200 things I wanted but iwasn't allowed to shop for myself so it kinda sucked!! But we went to this World Market place!! It had like a bunch of stuff from all over the world!! Ok well im gonna go

TTFN

I love you!!

Happy birthday to me!!! YAY!!!! I got my class ring from my parents!! It's rly pretty!! Go Rollin Stones and a card from My Jolley Joel!! It was overall a good day!!

Tomorrow I'm going to the FFA party w/ Joel!! Can't wait!! It's at the fair grounds I guess and there's gonna be "line dancing"!! :)Fun Fun!!

We had a 2 hour delay this morning! Whoop Whoop!! I watched movies al morning!!Yesterday we didn't have school cause of like the 3-5 inches of snow we got!! Awesome huh?! Well I better run!!

TTFN

I love you!!

Hey all!! Good news from the home of me.....4 months and counting baby!!!

The FFA Christmas party on saturday was FUN!! It was freeaking awssome!!!

Today is our 4 month annivesary!! I'm soo excited!! On our 5 month-er Joel will be in Colorado for FFA!! I'm Gonna miss him sooooo much!!!:( I don't want him to leave but I know he'll have fun!!

I figured out why Cory hates me!!

Christmas in in 6 days!! It came so fast!! I can't believe it!! I'm going to get the rest of Joel's present tomorrow!! I can't wait!! Presents!!!!!:)

TTFN

I love you!! I know we'll last a VERY long time!! I'm looking forward to every minute I'll get to spend w/ you!!! I love you soooo much...

Today is Christmas eve!!! Merry Christmas to all!!

My wonderful Jolley Joel got me a BEAUTIFUL bracelet!! It's soooo pretty!! I love it!!! He also got me an ormiment...his mom got me a bag of MEGA M&M's!!!:) I got him this freaking awesome shirt that says "Will Flex For Food" and a pair of Queen boxers!! I love everything he got me!! THANK YOU!!!!

We're having X-Mas here at my dad's today!! It'll be wild!!

TTFN

I love you but you're too good for me....So I'll be the best I can for you!!

Hey all!! Hope your Christmas was merry and bright!!!

I feel rly spoiled!! I had 4 things to go to in our family for Christmas!! I got over $200 in gift cards...just to one store!! Yeah!!! It's nuts!! My mom and step-dad got me a 400 watt stereo!! It's freaking sweet!! It vibrates the floor and everything!! I love it!! My daddy got me and MP3!! It's cool!! I just can't quite get the hang of the stupid thing!! O welll!! It'll all come w/ time!! I got more stuff.....but Im not gonna bore you!!!

KC's having a new years party on Saturday!! I can't wait!! New Year's w/ my Jolley Joel!!! ;) SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TTFN

I love you!

Happy New Year to all!! Hope it was a blast and that you got a lil *kiss* as the ball droped!!

On Friday I went over to Joels house for a little bit!! It was fun!! Me and Joel and Jacob played pool!! Jacob and I were flinging balls around and I smashed Joels finger!! I made it all better though!! At least I hope I did!!! His dad kept creeping down the stairs trying to catch us doing something "bad"  Oops!It was fun though!! HIs mom picked me up and took me to their house!! When we got there Joel, Jacob, and Troy (Joel's dad) weren't there!!! They went hunting!! But they showed up and we went down to play pool. It was really fun!!

KC's party last night was a blast!! Joel was the 1st guy there so it was funny cause we were making fun of him!! When Falk got there he was like clinging to Joel!! It was soo funny!! We sat upstairs on KC's bunk bed in the Cave Room!! We watched the Exorsist (sp)!!! I freakiing hate that movie!! I about pucked when the girl and the cross and......  It was just rly nasty!! But the party was fun!! I got a kiss as the ball droped!! :) Some gurls stayed the night!! It was me, Kara, Annalee, KC, Kaitlyn, and  Dana!! Oh and Tasha!! We stayed up till 5 o'clock talking!! It was a lot of fun!!

I LOVE these smileys!!!

TTFN

I  you!! You are the thing that keeps me going!! Thank You for a spectacular evening!!

Hey!!

Well i've been job shadowing all day and my head kinda hurts!! Me and Grahm went to St. Peter's to shadow sister lee! It was fun except for the fact that we graded like 150 papers!! I have LOTS of paper cuts!! Ouch!!

Ok well Joel leaves for Colorado on Saturday!! He'll be gone for a week!! I won't be able to see him or talk to him for a damn week!! It sucks major balls!! Also they changed me schulde(sp) around!! I have Spanish 5th instead of 8th! I won't have it w/ Joel anymore!! Also they changed my lunch!! So no more of that w/ Joel either!! I don't want it all to change!! Change sucks!! DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Joel: Remember that while you're gone that I will love you! I'll miss you so much!! But you'll come home and we'll be like you never left!! I promise you that we'll be fine!! Come hell or high water...we'll make it!!

TTFN

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps Joels coming over tomorrow!!! YAY!!!!

"And Then We Kiss (Junkie Xl Remix)"

[Verse 1:]
Lying alone
Touching my skin
I'm falling under
A girl like me
And I can't hold it in
It makes me wonder

Is this for real?
It's not what it seems
You're like an angel
I'm running now
My feet off the ground

[Pre-chorus:]
Take me
Touch me
Won't you hold me close?

[Chorus:]
And then we kiss
Your love comes alive on my lips
I feel a rush
Coming over me, over me
And when we touch
This moment when everything's still
I close my eyes
And then we kiss

The feel of your hand
As it touches my hair
It makes me tremble
Don't wanna let go
Of the feelings we share
So baby, go slow

Our hearts beating fast
And my body cries
I want it to last
It's burning inside
We're getting deeper

[Pre-chorus x1]
[Chorus x1]

You're drifting
The sun comes up
You're fading
You seem so far
I don't know
If I'm awake
Open my eyes
And then ww
We kiss...

[Pre-chorus x1]
[Chorus x1]

And then we kiss
And then we kiss
And when we touch
This moment when everything's still
I close my eyes
And then we kiss

I'm perfectly aware how sexual this sounds!! But it's a good song!! SO Get OVER IT!!!!!!!

Hey all!!

Joel left on Saturday!! He called me at 5:45 am!! I asked him to so I had it comming I guess!! He also called me last night!! They're in St Louis!! Well they were at 10:30 (our time) last night!! God he's only been gone 1 day and I miss him rly bad!! It sucks!!! But on the plus side we spent 2-3 hours together on Friday night!! It was soo sun!! We sat on my couch and watched CMT!! Cuddled, laughed, kissed....tickled!! We started to wrestle on my floor cause i was poking at him and tickling him!! He ended up behind my lazy boy curled up in a ball laughing his ass off!! He got me back though!! It was a blast!! I just can't wait till he get's home!!

Ummm...on Friday me and Grahm were still at St Pete's!! It was soo fun!! We played tick-tac-toe!! He beat me 13-2!! He kept bragging so I took this eraser (covered in chalk) and trew it at him!! It hit him smack in the chest!! It left this huge yellow mark!! I laughed my ass off and so did the 4th graders in the room!! Ah haha...the embarassment!!!

OK well Im off!!!

TTFN

I miss you!!! Only 6 more days then you're mine again!!

Well this is gonna be a real quick one!!Joel comes home in 3 days-ish!! I miss him and cant wait til he comes home!! I have to look some stuff up so Ill update tomorrow.....maybe

TTFN

I Love you!!

Hey peeps!! Allow me to complain for a bit!!

Okay well as of Monday and today vball conditioning has started!! We work out w/ the varsity baoys basketball team and it's intense. Considering that Diebler (bball coach) is now our kick ass coach!! Soooo excited am I!!!!!! Im so sore that I waddle!! Joel has fun laughing at me so I guess it looks kinda funny!!:) It hurts rly bad though!! Im horrobly sore!! But it'll all work out!! It'll improve our verticle jump by at least 4 inches!! We'll be killing that damn ball!! BAM!!!!!!

Joel is home safe and sound!! thank Goodness!! I missed him sooo much!! But he;s home and MINE again!! He said that he had fun so I guess thats all I can ask for!! We've managed to survive a rumor while he was gone!! YAY!!!!!:)!!!! I'm so glad that he's mine!! Our 5 month anniversary was the 19th!! He was gone so I was all by myself!! It was okk though cause he called me and all!!

Ok well I gots some looking to do!!!

TTFN

You're the only thing I need!! I love You!!!!

Ok....Hey to all!!

Well....I went shoppin yesterday!! Me and Maggie went to Mansfield!! It was a lot of fun!! When we were trying on clothes we had stalls beside each other and instead of opening the door and going around....well....I crawled underneath the side of the stall!! These old ladies kept looking at me funny!! But it was sooo fun!!! I got clothes for Reverse HC!!! I can't wait!! I'm soooooo freaking excited!!!

OK well I talked to Joel until 11:30 last night! It was fun!! I love talking to him!! Jacob kept bugging him and he was getting all mad!! Poor Baby!! He was making fun if me!! And he kept like complimenting me!! I love it!! I love him too but our convorsations are sweet!!

I hsve lifting tomorrow!!! At 6:30!!!! NOOOOO!!!!! O well itss all worth it!!!

TTFN

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

It's freaking Febuary and we just got like 6 inches of snow!!

Reverse was cancelled to the the damn white stuff!!! GRRRRR!! It really sucks too!! I wanted to go and dance.*cough and other things cough* Ha ha ha!!! A big groupe of us were going to go to Wendy's and eat....but the snow came a rolling in!!!

Joel was all mad yesterday!! He punched his pool table so his hand was turning funny colors!! Silly boy!! Ah well....I just wanna go and do something w/ him!! GRRRR again!!!

I;ve got homework to do!!

TTFN

I LOVE YOU!!!!! OH YES I DO!!!

Oh dear where to start....well how bout here. On Monday I went to the Freshman boys bball game ok. Well Collyn and I were talking about thei certain guy that Collyn's been digging on for a while. Ouut the blue Sheelby comes in and asks me to compare that bot w/ a boy on the Norwalk bball team!! I answered with well ummm....I'm kinda going out w/ Joel so i cant really say!! Shelpby was like well what does your opinion matter anyway....You have bad taste!! I was like WHAT THE HELL!!! I was sooo freaking pissed off it wasnt even funny!!! She has like the worst pick in guys ever so It dosen't really matter but It still pissed me off!!!

Joel is being a sweetie!! Not that its anything new but it's still cute. I love it!! I love him!! I can't help but wanna sing it and tell everyone how I feel!!!!! I know it sounds lame but it's sooo true.

I just typed my bio paper over the Exxon Valdez Oil spill!! Kinda interesting actually!!!

Reverse is now on the 17TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Break it down now!!!!

TTFN

It's Your Love

Dancin' in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
And holdin' it tight
Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
And askin' you to do
What you've been doing all over again

Oh it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
Oh it's your love

Better than I was
More than I am
And all of this happened
By takin' your hand
And who I am now
Is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever I'm happy and free

Oh it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you asked me why I changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
Oh it's your love

Oh, Baby
Oh…

Oh it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough
And if you wonder about the spell I'm under
Oh it's your love
It’s Your Love,
It’s Your Love.

It's our song!!!

Hey all! I was supposed to go and see my dad today but there was some miss communication and I'm gonna go tomorrow!! It'll be fun as long as I can beat the living shit outta Cody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Joel about made me cry last night!!!

      -Even If I had a Million dollars I Wouldn't find Happiness If I didn't Have you!!!

I freaked out and about started to bawl!! It was soo sweet!! I love him sooo much!!!

TTFN

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey all!!! I just went shoppin w/ my dad,sis,laura, and Cody!! Dad bought me a bunch of steelers stuff,a new DVD player, a cd, and Rocky Horror Pic Show!! I feel really wierd letting him buy all this stuff for me!! It's just not something I'm comfotable w/!! It bothers me!! He wants to buy me all this cause he wasn't able to when I was little but I don't want him to spend his money on me!! It makes me feel really rotten!!! I don't know what to tell him!!! Oh well I guess!!

I have a killer headache!!

TTFN

I love you!!!

Hey all!! Happt V-day a day late and a $ short!!!

I gots loads of stuff from Joel for valentines day!! Slippers w/ Lips on them, a stuffed puppy, an dlike 3 things of candy!! I felt bad cause I got him like 3 things and he got me bunches of stuff!!! Oh well!! It was so worth it!! His card was so nice!!! I loved it!!! Mr. Stotts walked past us this morning when we wee hugging!! I think it's kinda gay that they make a PDA rule yet they don't enforce it!! Not that  I'm objecting or anything!!!

I went to KC's on v-day!! I twas like 5o degrees so we went for a walk!! Then we went to her house and attempted to skateboard!! It didn't work out to well!! I was standing on it and I fell flat on my ass!! I have 2 bruises and a huge like floor burn looking thing on my knee!! It hurt!!

Reverse is tomorrow!! YAY!!! And Sunday I might go over to Joel's for our 6th month anniversary!!!

Ok well Im gonna take a nap!!

TTFN

 Thanks for a wonderful Valentines day!! I love you so much!!!

Hey all!! A bad morning...good day....then a bad ending to the day!

ALright well I didn't get up till 7 this morning..and then Brad yelled at me for slamming the bathroom drawer!! It's not my fault that the things dumb and wouldn't shut!!

Reverse was cancelled yet again!! The DJ thought it was a different day then what it was!! BUT...Joel came over and that was fun!! ANd so did Libby!!! We ate pizza and me and Joel argued over forks!! HA ha ha!!! It was fun though!! lol

On sunday I went over to Joels!! He bought me daisys!! They're so purdy!! I love them!! We played pool and I almost fell asleep on his bed!! Oops!! I was rly tired and we were watching his brother!! Who has a nasty temper by the way!! He was throwing stuff and me!! But it was fun....again

Oh and if one more person screws w/ me today I'm gonna go all ninja on their ass!!! (Not to insult anyone or nothin) But I swear it!! I'm so in the mood to open a can of whoop ass!! 1st ****** giving me and MY man the look!!! Well guess what sweetie...HE"S NOT YOURS ANYMORE!!!! SO GET YOUR FAT ASS OVER IT!!!! And then....oh never mind...I'm done!!

TTFN

Love you!! Thanks for 2 fun evenings!!!

Hey peeps!! Was up!? I had an overall good day today!! I'm kinda sick and can't breath through my nose!! But hey it's all gooD!

Joel went to Districts(sp) for FFA last night!! He didn't say how he did!! But he did get into trouble w/ his rents!!! He was just trying to be nice!! Oh well!! He was in a good mood today I would say!! We talked on the phone!! About a lot off stuff!! Fun Fun!!

Had vball this morning!! It was bad!! We scrimmiged!! WOW!!! That's all I will say!! About that!!

Went for a wal w/ Libby today!! It was so fun!! When we got home I had to pee so bad!! We were laughing so hard!! And she was eating this tootsie roll and it looked like a turd and she told me to stop or she was gonna choke on it and I thought she said something COMPLETELY different!! It wwas great!! we got honked at by like 20 cars!! It was kinda scary!!

TTFN

I love you....oh yes I do!!!!

Hey all!! Went for a walk w/ KC today!! It was fun..we took Elias w/ us!! It was rly cold!! I also went out and raked leaves!! Also very cold!! But hey it's done now!!! Alroghty well I'll update this later!! I have homework to do!!

TTFN

Love you!

Hey all!! I had a freaking awesome day!! Let's say that I've never laughed so much in my life!!

Ok well to start off....in AP English....2nd period....I was sitting on this counter/shelf ok and I was sitting near the crates/boxes that hold our vacab folders!! And yes we're in the 9th grade and we still do vocab!! But anyway....I was sitting there and M***** was telling Jessie to get her folder for her!! And me being a smart ass was like "Maggie why don't you get off your lazy butt and get it yourself" It was sooo funny the whole class went 'oohh"!! She just like glared at me!! And got all Huffy of course!! Let me inform you that she didn't talk to me for the rest of the day!! But I was just saying what everone else was thinking!! People even told me so!! Ah....It was great!!

Then in spanish 5th period....I was talking to Megan and Cody and in our book there was this spanish word that was !Uf! And me being stupid started to laugh histarically!! Cody was just looking at me...but hey I gotta kick outta it!!

Then at lunch...Jason was making these dumb ass faces!! I was laughing so hard!! I was crying and my belly hurt afterward!!! Danny was laughing just as hard!! Then they were making fun of me cause I was laughing and my face was all red!!

In tech. ed. Gwyn and I are in Biotechnology!! Well we had to do our worksheet thing that had us check our temperature and w/e!! Well we had this skin pincher thing and had to measure the fat on our arms!! It was hilarious cause the pincher thing was rly scary looking!! And Gwyn was freaking out cause she didn't want to pinch herself!! Then we were taking Gwyns bp and what not and I wrapped the band to tight around her arm and it turned her funny colors!! But hey it was fun!!

Joel was in a good mood too!! It was fun!! We were talking about him "feminine" side!! ANd yes I spelled that wrong!!  But I was just teasing honey!! Love you!!

I had vball this morning!! Fun Fun!!

I have hw to do!!

TTFN

I Love My Jolly Joel!!!

Hey all!!

I had a good overall day .....until Joel sked me about going to Europe!! The spanish and english classes are gonna go to europe next year over spring break!! Well the only was that I can go is if I pay the $2500!! Yeah...not gonna happen!! So Im not going and I'm rly pissed off!!! Cause evidentaly Joel is going now!! DAMMIT!!!

M***** still hasn't spoken to me!! It's been 3 days and still not a word!! Not that I object or anything!! But she should be over it by now!!

I got my braces tightened yesterday!! So my mouth now hurts like a bitch! Owwie!!!

Ok well I'm gonna go!!

TTFN

I love you!!

Hey all!! What is up? Not really a lot here!!

I was talking to Claire last night and she informed me that the bitch is at it again!! M***** was riding the bus home and out of no where pulled out a bunch of notes that Joel had written her when they were together!! Like they had been in her pants that long!! Claire even said it didn't look like they had been washed or anything!! And then she told Cory and Claire that I didn't/don't deserve Joel!! Well you know what at least I don't whine and complain and treat people like shit!! I was royaly pissed off!!

We have and assembly tomorrow!! Whoopie!! That means no Bio test!! Whoop again!!! But I don't know if Joel and I will get to sit together cause we're coming from different directions!! We will though!!

TTFN

I love you so much!!

Hey people!!  What is up w/ yall? I just checked me e-mail(music_rulz09@yahoo) and I don't have any important mail!! Not that that is anything new but Joel said he sent me something....it wasn't there!! Oh well!!!

I had a rly wierd dream when I took my nap today!! Let's say that a lightbulb melted on to my sweatshirt!! Not possible I know but hey it's a dream!!

We had an assembly today!! The whole guy=girl intermural team thing!! The one girl who did play never got the ball!! Stupid bball people!! J/p!! Bball is like my 3rd favorite sport!! But anyway....Joel sat in between my legs and I kept tickling him. He told me that I should be playing because at summer gym last year I plowed him into the wall!! He got smacked mind you!! But it was funny!! And then we had teasing argument about how he always buys me things...and I don't need it!! I offered to give him my lunch money cause he didn't have any...that's how it started!!

TTFN

I love you...thanks for everything!!

Hey all!! What is up? I'm just sitting here at my grandmas/dads. FUN Fun!!

I found out that my dads dad (grandfather who I never met) had a heart attack!! He had to have triple bypass surgery. I never met him but I still worry. He's never been there for my dad or my uncle or my sister and me. So I kinda hope this near death experience doesn't make him decide to push himself on to us!! I mean it'd be nice and all but I really dont want to meet the man who treats us as if we don't exist. His former wife wasnt even going to tell my dad. He found out by chance. That is a load of horse shit!! It's his son.....it's bull.

It started out as a good day...then I talked to someone and got all pissed off... so now I have a blooming headache. So Im gonna go!!

TTFN

I Love You....more then life.

What is up all!! OMG I'm so flipping tired right now!! No nap for me!! *tear*

Reverse is on Friday!! Whoopie!! I so excited!!

Joel and I made a bet.....and I won!! Oh yeah!! It's all me!! WHO-RAH!!!

M***** is still ticking me off behond belief!! I don't think she'lll ever realize that we rly don't care!!

OK well I"m outie for now!

TTFN

I love you and all.....but I WIN!!!!!!!!

Hello my fine friends!!What is cracking w/ yall?!

Reverse Homecoming was last night! It was alot of fun except for the fact that Chadd kept like poping up outta no where!! It was kinda creepy! There was a lot of ass grabbing/slapping going on between the girls....not to mention LOADS of grinding!! It was a freaking blast!! I got to spend 3 beautiful hours in Joels arms!! Soooo nice!!

We had contest for band and choir today!! It was at Oak Harbor HS!! I was there from 7:30-4. ANd I had to get up at 5 and I 'm surviving on 4 hours of sleep right now!! I'm so beat!! So Im gonna go eat food and go to bed!!

TTFN

I love you...thatks for a wonderful evening!

Ok well I have Homework that I should be doing but I thought I'd do a quick update!! Ok well Im gonna go cause I didn't rly do anything today!! Not anything to share anyway!!

TTFN

I love you

What is up!!?

Ok to start off..I have no voice!! I mean it's there but it hurts and It's like all crackly!! Joel was making fun of me cause I sound like a guy!! Then I refused to speak to him and he flipped out!! Oops!!

Ok well I just got off of the phone w/ my Jolley Joel!! We talked about the nasty conversations that he had in industrial arts with Cody H and Cody R!! Both are flipping wierd!! It's all good though!! ANd then he infomed me that Cory thinks I have nice boobs!! And I don't know how to take it exactly!! It's kinda scary!! Not in a stalker way or nothing but Cory hates me yet likes my boobs!! It's kinda funny!!

Maggie has been reading my blog! Therefore she knows my opinion on her and called me a backstabber even though she does the same thing to me!! Funny no? SO she's not speaking to me!!

TTFN

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey all!!

Ok well we've had OGT's all week. Not fun...but all of our classes were cut short. That was the best part. Didn't get to see Joel as often but it was ok....it was boring as hell. But I got a note everyday....sometimes more than one!! YAY!! Notes are nice!!

Vball wasn't today....Diebler told us we could have the day off. YAY right....not really cause all I've done is eat. I need to get out of the house

I have to get blood drawn tomorrow!! I'm scared....*tear* They're gonna run tests and everything!!

Still sick....but getting better....really tired too....fell asleep in 3 classes today!! Oops!!

Ok well Im gonna go!!

TTFN

Good day or bad...I'll always love you.

Hey peeps!! What is up?

Ok well where to start....well we had a suprise b-day bash for my grandma last night. Loads of fun. Got to watch my cousin and his gf grope each other under the table....yummy.....NOT!!!!  He's 17 (supposed to be a junior) and she's a flipping 8th grader!! 3years...yeah w/e...it's nasty...my WHOLE family was there!! But on the plus side...I didn't have to go to band practice!!

We also took Elias to the ER last night. He has the croope again. It was scary... I called Joel in tears. I felt kinda bad calling him and just bawling my eyes out. But he was there for me and that's all that I can ask for.

Mom and Brad have been at each others throats for the past 2 days...not fun!! No fun at all!!!

School was fun today. Yesterday I was so hyper. I suprised Joel rly bad....it was FUUUUUUNNY!!! Great times w/ my Jolley Joel!!

Ok welp I better run!!

TTFN

I Love YOU!!!!!!! You're all that I want and more than I deserve.

Hey all. What is cracking? Not a lot here....just sitting w/ my dad watching the boob tube. Ha ha ha!!! Not a alot planned today!!

I leave for florida in 2 weeks. I'm so excited. I'm gonna miss Joel so bad though. He's thinking about what's gonna go wrong w/ the bus. I'm gonna miss talking to him every night. I'll cry when I leave!!!  Oh well it happens. I'll come back and it'll be like I never left.

Yesterday me and KC played vball. Well for the most part. We were being dumba nd started to sword fight w/ sticks. I started to flip out cause I was afraid that she was gonna hit me. Then we were doing 007 moves in her front lawn. It was so funy. We were throwing her newspaper around the yard.....and the bag broke and it almost hit her dad's car!! It was freaking hilarious.

Kayla and I are gonna go to the play tomorrow. It'll be a long 2 1/2 hours in that auditorium. But it'll be worth it. The play in Damn Yankees and it's supossed to be good!!

Ok well I'm postin lyrics if I can find them!!

TTFN

I Love You!!!!

Okay....quickly.....Joel is coming over friday after school. YAY!! Can't wait!! Then we're goin to Wynford's fun night! Had vball this morning....ok...got chewed out.Joel was being ornery today.FFA banquet was yesterday. Fun 3 hours if I say so myself. Okay...i'm done w/ my quicky.

TTFN

I Love You!!

Hey Hey Hey!!

Ok well today Brad took me driving. It was so fun!! I wanna do it again. Mom  and I went for a walk w/ the boys. Than Kayla called and wanted to go for a walk and I said no. Mom still won't leave me alone about it. Grrrrr.....

Tomorrow I have vball. And I leav for florida in 5 days. Ecited yet really bummed at the same time. I wanna go but I don't wanna leav Joel!! Tear me in 2 pieces and I would be happy.

Joel and I went to Wynford High to their fun night. It was packed. Little kids running around and chaos gallor. Not fun. Got to spend the evening w/ Joel so that made it better. But I still felt bad due to the fact that we didn't get alone time. Then I felt like crying. I still feel bad.....*tear*

TTFN

I love you!! Sorry about Friday!!

Hey all. What has been up in the past 13 days? Not much here.

OK well I wasa t Florida w/ the USHS marching Ram Band from the 7-13. It was a lot of fun. Can't wait till senior year to do it again. We went to Disney World. I got my pictures w/ all sorts of characters. It was fun. I missed Joel and my family really bad though. I got really home sick. But I'm home now so I'm all good.

Easter was fun. Joel came over tom y Grandma and Grandpa's w/ me. He got to see my true colors. I threatened to break my cousins fingers. He was pissing me off and I told him to fuck of or I'd break his fingers. I had his brused hand and I was squeezing it till his fingers were purple. He was on the ground begging for mercy.

I have vball tomorrow. We are doing 3 sets tomorrow. And this air alert thing. It's supposed to improve our verticle jump by 3 inches. Ok well I'm gonna go....

TTFN

I love you so much> I missed you even more though>But don't forget that I love you and I always will.

Hey all. Well another week of school has passed. Nothing really eventful. Casey Hill got the shit kicked outta her by Shania Balduf. I didn't witness it cause I was at vball. But Casey was bleeding and her head got slammed into the floor a couple of times. It was the talk of the day.

Jason is having a party tonight. Joel's mom told him that if I really liked Joel I wouldn't go. Just cause Joel couldn't go. I was pissed for the rest of the day. She has no right to talk about Joel and mines relationship. She doesn't klnow what's going on. She just needs to realize that Joel isn't gonna be a baby forever. It ticks me off.  I mean what did I ever do to her (besides date Joel) to make her say something like that to him. So I'm not going..........that and Mom needs me here at the homestead.

Evan's getting really big. He can roll over and he babbles and laughs. It's so precious. Ok well I'm gonna go......I don't know why but right now I feel like I could burst into tears........:(

TTFN

Joel: I love you. It can't be expressed into words. No matter what your mom says....I love you. You mean so much to me.

Hey all. How are you on this dreary day? All good and wonderful I hope.

I almost cried today. Mom and Brad took out a loan so that we can buy this house that's up fpr Shariff Sale. I don't want to move. I'm sure it'll be nice to live in the country but I don't wanna go. I won't be able to walk w/ KC and have everything within walking distance of my house. I DON"T WANNA LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Joel wrote me a really pretty note today. He's so nice. Really, he's way to good for me. I don't know how he deals with me. But he does it. I love him so much. We can just sit and enjoy eachothers company w/o having to like make out all the time. It's really nice to have somebody who loves me no matter what. But it's good to find a person who makes me the happiest that I've ever been.

Ok well I have homework and vball tomorrow.

TTFN 

Joel, I love you bunches. The past 8 months have been the best ever. I'm so glad that I've found you. You mean so much to me. I just hope that you know that.

Hey all. What is cracking?

I mowed Mrs. Armstrong's yard today. Oh and she's no relation to Joel. But anyway it took me 2 hours to do her yard. And my calfs hurt so bad. Like REAL bad.

Joel was being really goofy today. It was really fun.  I love him so much. But it was funny. I got outta vball ready to kill somebody. Kristen was being all snooty and was back talking me and It was pissing me off majorly. So I walked up to Joel and I started to complain about how I hate it when people who don't know what the hell they're doing backtalk me. And I'm older than her....that really mad me mad. She has no clue as to what she's doing out on that court and I tell her and Then she makes me to look like the bitch. I know how to play the game thatnk you and she could learn a few things.

But other than that.....I went for a walk w/ Olivia. It was fun. Had conversations that were interesting. It was fun. I have to pick up mulch tomorrow and then we're going to clean Mel's.

I have field commander on tuesday. Kinda nervous....

TTFN

I love you so much........no matter what.

Ok allow me to say one thing about step-fathers.....THEY SUCK!!!!! At 11 o'clock last night Brad came in and started to POUND on the bathroom door. I opened it up and told him I had 2 more minuets before I had to be out. He told me to get my ass out now. I told him to give me 2 freaking seconds to get dressed. I had just put my shirt on when he pounded again. I was so pissed. He stood there and lectured me for 10 minuets and told me he'd have to start to ground me cause I don't care. Now by that point I was about ready to cry. He got into the bathroom and I went upstairs and came back down to talk to my mom. I told her that I had 2 minuets left and I didn't get to bruch my teeth or my hair. All I would have needed were those 2 minuets and I could've been done. I was crying by that point. So I didn't get to bed until 12am and woke up at 5:35. KC was picking me up @ 5:40. So I had a really bad morning to. My vball game is going to shit and I almost started to cry again. Joel was being so sweet about the whole thing and was giving me hugs. Collyn gave me one to cause I was tearing up when I walked past her. Brad just pissed me off so bad. I can't stand it. Rarely do I break down into tears.......Brad just set me off. Joel kept giving me love though so he made it better. I love him so much. He's always there when I need him.

TTFN

I love you so much. Thanks for being there today.

Hey peeps. What is crackin? Having a better day since my lat entry.

Joel has been at state convention for the past 2 days. He comes home today. YAY!! He called me at 12:30 last night and left me cell a message. He sounded drunk. He wasn't though. He called again and said he drank one of them Vault things. O well. I haven't acctully talked to him, or seen him, since the Tursday that he left. Need to talk to him and see him.I've missed him. But today he comes home.

Went for a walk w/ Olivia and Cait last night. Olivia and I had to run home cause we were gonna be late. So we sprinted like half way to my house. It was funny. Talked to Curt and Cait for a bit. Then we sat at my house and laughed at eachother being retards. We were doing those sexy run way walks...only we were doing them WAY wrong.

Might go see the Prom walk in tonight. I dunno yet though.

TTFN

I love you.....like a lot.

Hey all.

Okay well Joel was gone today. It was Apple Butter Day. He had to help these 2nd graders make butter I guess. He smelt like camp fire smoke when I saw him during the assembly. Good smell. Only one accident.....boy cut finger...all good in end. Joel ran from me yesterday. Long story. Don't ask.

Up In The Air and On Higher Ground came to school today. They are vocal groups from Tiffin Universaty. Awesome groups. Fun dancing time.

Ok well,I better run.

TTFN

I love you soo.

So not a good day. It was alright till I got home from my chamber choir concert try outs. All fine and dandy till mom started to yell. Elias doesn't love me therefore I feel like the worst sister in the world. Joel tried but didn't succeed in making me feel better. But he gets points for trying. I just need to get away from this place. Or my brain is going to explode. I mean My 2 year old brother and I don't get a long at all. Mom and Brad are always yelling at me and It just sucks. I can't wait to get out.

TTFN

Love you...thanks for trying 

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I found this highly amusing. Don't ask why. My brother showed me this sight. I just think it's funny. But then gain I'm amused by the oddest things.Latas

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Happy Mother's Day to all Moms!!!!

That's all that I really have to say. Oh and please check the link in the last entry. It's funny.

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Love ya<3

Hola all. Just sitting here eating a brown sugar cinnimon pop tart. Yummy Yummy!!

Nochole is mad at Joel. I told her something that she wasn't supposed to tell Joel. Well...she told him anyway and then he told me that she told him. So know she's all pissed off and won't talk to him cause he told me that she told him. He evidentally broke a promise. I told her it's no big deal and nothing to lose a friend over.....she don't care. Oh Well. I knew she'd tell him anyway so I'm not mad about it. But she is. I'm kinda glad cause me and Joel cleared things up. YAY!!! Our 9 month anniversary is on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whoop Whoop!!!

Vball was okay this morning. All of the tracka and softball are starting to come in now so th complex has been packed. Not fun. We all fight over weights and stuff.  It sucks.

I wanna go for a walk. It's the 1st time in like 7 days that it hasn't rained. I need to get out.

Mom won't let Joel come over on Friday. I've got a B- in Geometry.....might go back to a C  if I didn't do well on the last test. And we have another test on Friday too. What is this world coming to?

TTFN

I love you......like.......uh.....my brother loves food. Ha ha ha......seriously...I love you.

Hell to the Yeah....I get my braces of in September!!! YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait......no more metal.....pain over......EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

I yelled at Nichole today!! She deserved it in my opinion. She started to cry. My bad I guess......but I told her to stop. It was.......interesting.

Joel and me's 9 months is tomorrow!!!!

TTFN

9 months.......And I love you more with each passing day.

Today is Tuesday. Happy Tuesday To All.

9 months have passed between Joel and I. 9 of the most awesome months ever. I love him bunches.

I have 6 days of school left. 6 days to see my Jolly Joel. *tear* I don't know what I'm gonna do w/o him all summer.

Danny made me 2 of the most awesome cd's ever. I went through his ipod and picked all of the songs that I liked. Now they're mine. YAY!

I've got vball tomorrow.

Had an Honors Assembly last  night. The longest 1 hour and 50 minuets of my life. Joel took me home. Needless to say I owe him a piece of gum now. That was funny. Oh.....the memories. I sure will miss him over the break.

TTFN

I love you and I'll miss you sooooooo  much!!!! My heart belongs to you.

Ok....hello 1st off....... 5 days left of school

Joel was in a bad mood today. He wouldn't tell me why. That's okay and all but it bothers me cause I think I might have done something wrong. He just said he had a lot on his mind. He like completely ignored me this morning. I didn't get to talk to him really until after lunch cause he wouldn't talk. I don't know what's wrong....and me being me I wrote him this note telling him all this stuff and....he was better....called me a whinner but he was better.

I think that's all that happened today.

TTFN

Love you

Hola all......

Okay Joel left for 4-wheeling weekend yesterday. He'll be gone till tomorrow. I won't get to talk to him. He'll be having fun playin in the mud and I'll sit here and wish I was down playing in the mud too. I want to go 4-wheeling really bad.

Olivia and I went for a walk last night. There's this kick ass mustang for sale on 8th street. It's for $14,500 but damn is it pretty. Anyway......we stoped at Libs house and it started to sprinkle...so we decided to go to me house. Well we got like 3 feet and it started to pour. So we hid under   a tree .....well that didn't help at all. We decided to make a run for it.....we were running to the different doorways of the school (south)....Let's just say that by the time we got to my house we were both drenched. It was fun though.

The summer is fast aproching.....only 2 days lft of school........and.....seeing all my friends and Joel too.

TTFN

I Love very much!! 

Happy hot freaking day to all!!!

I went down to the park w/ Kayla. We were there from 11 till 2. That's 3 hours in the hot sin in nothing but a wife beater and shorts. I played in my sports bra till Kc and Travis showed up. It was and still is really hot!!! We played sand vball. And i'm so burnt. I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight. Grrrrr........

Joel gets home today!! YAY!!! He's supposed to call me.....

I have to march in the memorial day parade tomorrow. Come and watch me pass out from the heat. Wool uniforms and standing for 1/2 an hour......damn

TTFN

I love you.......

Hey peeps! School's out for summer.....yes.....I mean....HELL TO THE YEAH!!!

OKay well Joel came over on friday for like 5 hours.That was good fun. It was a blast......*giggle* He gave me a piggy back ride and I thought he was gonna drop me. I trust him and all but the whole bending over thing scared me to death. We kept trying to take eachothers socks off....I never got his off but he got mine. Then mom informed me that our relationship shouldn't go on since I haven't ever seen his feet and for all I know his toes are gonna fall off. They aren't....but I've never seen his feet. And I played w/ his hair....so soft it is....and pretty!! But yeah....I need to have him over more often.....like soon..... ....I love him so much....He starts work tomorrow......work hard honey.......

Had a bone fire w/ cait today. Graduation was today and we were really bored so we hung out. Walked w/ Libby yesterday. It was a blast. I also mowed dorthy's//......pain in the buttocks......he he he....

TTFN

I love you honey......

Hey-low all!! Another summer day has come and gone.....

Ok..well Cait burnt me the Hinder: Extreme Behavior cd. It is the best ever. I now have to burn it for Joel. I got it first.....*evil laugh*

Joel really likes his job. They had to unload a lot of concrete yesterday. 2 of them big trucks full. He likes it though...that's really good that he got a jobe he liked.

I'm so bored of summer already. Nothing to do.....

Oh happy 6-6-06 day......the tv ppl are making a big deal outta that......whoo....

Lyrics next......

TTFN

I love you...just thinking about you makes me smile.....

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late


 

What is up.....

The Relay For Life was last night at the High School. I walked w/ Jason, Danny, Kelly, Kristy and Olivia. It was Libs last night in the US for a month so we went and hung out w/ ppl at the relay. It was fun. Jason and Danny bought this gay ball and we all were throwing at each other. It was a blast.

I'm gonna post some lil sayings....

TTFN

Baby, you are my only one.....

&& WhenI'mOlder                 
and my little girl asks me who my first love was ;;                                         

I dont want to pull out one of those rusty old photo                            

albums, i want to be able to point across the room

and say -->>"He's sitting right over there"

                              
 &&ipinkypromise

that when were little old ladies

we will still be best friends

causing trouble in nursing homes

running poeple over with our little

scooters and botherin the

old guys
                                             
                            That's twisted.....

   a friend will  hold

the door open for you.

a  bestfriend  would

be like " you

got two  hands."                 

Sorry I got carried away......my bad

Hey all. Inever realized it but food is awesome.

OK well our wonderful Vball team went to Fostoria to play against McComb. We  hustled our asses off and worked really hard. I was dripping sweat. We worked hard...there was no scoring but I think it was awesome. Now I'm really freaking hungry.

I haven't talked to Joel in 2 days.......*tear* I miss talking to my man.I hate summer cause i can't ever see him......

TTFN

I love you honey.....always!!!!

Ok this is a quick one. Just to inform you all...Ben Roethlisberger was in a motorcycle crash. He was hit by a car turning left when he had the green light to go. He broke his nose and jaw and injured his knee. My Grandma said he lost some teeth too. He wasn't even wearing a helmet. He evidentaly loved to take risks. He was taken to the ER and is in surgery I guess.

If you ever feel the need for speed...please wear a helmet.....

TTFN

Love you.......

Aloha all!!! Another boring ass summer day has passed......yay......

I miss my friends! I miss Joel!!! It's just not the same talking on the phone. I wanna see the love of my life. But I'll see him when we get back from vacation. Cause I'm allowed to go to his daddy's 40th b-day bash. I excited. Nervous too cause it'll be both sides of the family....not just the Kramers. But I'm just glad I can go!! YAY!!!!!

Vacation from the 18-23.....hiking, walking and lots of headaches. We'll go canoeing and horseback riding. Fun....BUT  I'll be gone over me and Joel's 10 month anniversary. But I'll see him the day after I get back.....YAY!!!!!

TTFN

I love you soooo much!! I'm sorry I'm leaving you for a week!! I'll miss you tons and tons though!!!

Hey all. I just got back from band and I helped mom clean.

Okay well vacation was uneventful. Not  lot that you can do w/ 2 children under the age of 5. But I did take a lot of pics and it was fun. We'd been there before so we'd seen everything.

Troy"s party was fun. Angie made this freaking awesome cake that I wasn't going to eat until Joel convinced me that I should. And it was AWESOME!! She also sent me home w/ like loads of food and stuff. And Joel and I played football w/ his Brother and Nick(Chadd's bro). I discovered that I can throw a football WAY farther than Joel. Not something to be proud of but it's kinda funny. So now my shoulder hurts....he cracked it on accident. We also sat on his 4-wheeler. I really want to go riding.

Mom and I got into a huge argument on Friday. I  had Joeel call my cell after I talked to him for the 1st 15 mins. He called to tell me that it was okay that his Grandma took me to the party. Well mom found out cause she came upstairs and she called me a liar and told me that I might not get to go. So I was pissed of and was crying and Brad talked to me. I was yelling and screaming and the whole time he was talking to me like I was a 3 year old throwing a temper tantrum. So I went to bed....didn't take a shower or nothing...I was still dressed in my clothes from that day. So the next day I worked my ass of and they let me go.

Yesterday we had vball. KC, Kayla, Ashley and myself all went to Black Swamp. Whch is this awesome vball place that teaches you good stuff. And the guy there gave me, Kayla and Ashley a free lesson. It was fun and know not only am I sore from football but also from the stuff that he made us do. Then we went to Fostoria and played horrible BUT I had some freaking sweet hits. They were REALLY good. Then we went back to KC's and went swimming.

OKay well that is about it!!

TTFN

 I love you so much. I'm sorry I was short w/ you. But I love you bunches.

What is up my friends? Not to much happenin here....really bored. I mowed dorthy's today and we were gonna go to Tiffin but mom  got angry so we stayed home and ate wendy's. Which was very yummy by the way....I'm supposed to be on a diet for vball so it was freaking awesome!! Fatty Fast food!!! Yum! I'm just gonna put some random stuff in here now!!!

TTFN

I love you sweety!!

   Some quize thingys.....

              You're a multiple personality kisser......

Your kisses vary greatly, depending on whose lips you're kissing. Some people bring out your silly, flirty side, and others make you feel all shy and romantic. You're flexible kiss-wise, so you're not picky about firmness or tongue action. The act of kissing is all it takes to make you happy, so you almost never get critical or make demands. You just take a deep breath and let your lips do their thing.

Peace all!! Let me just say that I am suffering from severe boredness. It's driving me CRAZY!!!!

Okay well on Friday I went and helped mom clean her 3 houses. Then I went to my grandma's and grandpa's house. We went to eat at Al Smith's Place then went to Wynford elementary school to watch the All-Ohio State Fair Choir.  Also known as the Crdinal Chorale. The basses in that group like out numbered all the others so it was really cool. You could hear all the low stuff. They were well balanced still but it's nice to see more guys in a choir than girls. I also woke up to a text message from my wonderful boyfriend too. He got a phone on thursday and he paid for it himself. I'm so proud.

On Saturday......I did my chores. Then I went to the Farmers Market w/ Kayla. We were gonna get Ice cream but Mikes was closed. After that i went to the sand courts w/ KC. I got really burnt. One side of my body and face is redder than the other side. It looks funny. Brad went tracing so it was a fun day.....freedom....

Yesterday.... Woke up to another text message.(Joel's so nice) Went to Grandma Kears to eat brunch. Then at 2:30 I had to be at KC's for summer league at Fostoria. we played at 4 and 7.  We won too. The second game at 7. We played Tiffin Columbian....who are supposed to be really good.....and we beat them. Then Coch Leevy told me that these games was the best that he's ever seen me play. I was so happy!! I worked my ass off last night too so it felt good to get commented on. I was really freaking sweaty too....I was shimmering. It was AWESOME!!!!!

Today it's raining so I won't do much today. Woke up to another text message. It's really nice to wake up to really. It's nice to know that he cares enough to make my day as soon as I get up. I love him so much!! I have no idea what I'd do w/o him.....

Ok well this entry is longer than hell....sorry!!

TTFN

I love you honey.

Hey all!! Fire crackers drive me crazy.....I hate living in town. Not really but you can hear freaking everything.

OKay well in case you missed it....Onthe 29th Joel got a shiny new cell phone. He bought it himself. It's a razor.....haven't seen it yet. His ringtone is freaking awesome. But he texts me in the mornings..it's really nice. He wants to take my pic for it and put it as a wallpaper.....but I'm not gonna let him. Sorry babe but I'm not photogenic.

Nothing happened today. Went to my grandparents to eat. I threw ice in my cousins face. Causing to throw me down on the floor and stomp on my toe. The toe wasn't on purpose but my toe pulsed really bad afterward. Then everybody left me and Evan so I watched King Kong while he slept.

I had a really interesting dream last night. Joel played baseball......he doesn't even like baseball.....huh......! Then when I took my nap I had another dream but this one was bad. I woke up crying. I hate dreams like that.

Ok well I better go......

TTFN

I love you honey......

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Holy Freaking Shit!!!!!!! I'm now legal. I can drive!!! I got my permit today!!(Is an 83 bad?)YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!! I still have to drive w/ my parents but it's so awesome. I'm not allowed to drive till my mom makes sure that I'm insured. AND my daddy's gonna buy me a car!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna go watch firworks w/ Joel tonight. IF he calls me back that is. They're probably working on that cabin. Oh well!!! OMG I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!

Went to the Forest Fest last night. It was fun....Kayla went w/ me. It was cool but we didn't know anybody so it was kinda boring. The food gave me a belly ache too. ewwwwww......

I'm so happy............happy and in love.....can it get any better?

TTFN

i love you baby!!!

I'm not a jealous person. I'm just
a girl that would love to punch every
girl in the face that gives you a second look..

So push me up against the wall, and kiss me
like you mean it...

you know you're in love when
you wanna tell everyone about it,
even when they haven't asked .. <3

JUSt tHiNK.. YOU && ME BABY.
W E C O U l D M A k E - t H E M
-- J E A l O U S --

Torn between two.

Who would you choose?

the one that you love ..

or the one that loves you ?