Have you ever wondered why things change? I've been pondering this topic for a while lately. Why do people drift apart? It's often because people grow up and they change. I'm not as close with some of my friends as I used to be. And in the place of them, kinda, I've gotten closer to other ppl. So I guess because I lost friends I gained some too. But you can never replace that emptiness that comes with drifting away from a really close friend. It's always there. Kinda sitting in the back of your mind....picking and nagging till you aknowledge its there. I honesly can't ignore it anymore. I hate the fact that we all grow up and go our seprate ways. That we don't do the same things we used to. We get boyfriends, cars, better friends, and different opinions. We all drift away. Sure sometimes we come back and it's like things never changed...but until then you have that feeling of being tossed aside and ignored. I hate that feeling. I don't understand it. When I was little I had this deam of who would be my best friend till I died, who would be in my wedding, who would I room with in college and who I'd alwyas be the bestest friends with. It's changed so many times since then. I mean I'm 16 years old. It's had time to change. But there will always bee the memories there to keep me semi-satisfied. I love my friends....weither we're still close or not. Amd the is one thing that will NEVER change!!

Another thing about summer that i absolutely hate is how I can't see anybody anymore. I can't see my friends, Joel, or anybody. Sure there are those that I walk with and those i talk to butother then that it's nobody. Joel works 9 hours everyday and is dead tired when he gets home so he isnt really in the mood to talk. Which is understandable and ok. It's just frustrating. I'm used to talkin to him everday, all day. And now it's for 15 mins and the occasional txt message. It's the same with my girls. I hardly talk to most of them. But everybody has there own lives to get on with. I get up, I help mom, eat supper, talk to Joel, I go to bed. Maybe go for a walk in there somewhere. I have no life in the summer!! GR!!!

That concludes my whining!!

I HATE SUMMER!!!

TTFN